Oh my. Dance it off. Like mambo night. Dance it off.

Amazing how moods change when just moments ago I was a perfect example of what you would define a couch potato.

I need Zouk, or at least some blasting music and techno lights.

Come on, I'm a human being and i happen to need a stress outlet now. Like NOW?

Or perhaps clubbing provides a facade for a momentary escape, something to exhaust myself into a deep dreamless sleep and then not think of anything else until I'm willing to face up to 'it'.

Perhaps that explains the ONCE IN AWHILE (no worries i'm not a frequent clubber yet) phuture craving. Dance it off, then sleep it off, and you'll be all set to tackle whatever comes your way. My theory of phuture-ing. Zouk could probably earn a million bucks more if they market my theory.

Anyway, 'it' is still best left as it is until a calm state of mind falls upon me.

So here am I blogging in the replacement of clubbing in the hope to get rid of my pressing need to dance it off and to be tired enough to fall asleep when I can't think of anymore to type.

It's not working, apparently.

(it's alr 2am!)

My brainwaves are too active to make me go to sleep.

Not a wonder if YOU knew what's going through my mind.

Yes i'm talking about YOU. PIG.

OMG, I'M STILL FEELING SO ANGRY >.<

If it's unimportant then why would i have gone to such great lengths?
Humans are beings who need closure before they can move on from things in the past.
I don't know. I'm sad. I read things I wish I didn't. Some things should not be revealed in such a manner. I'd much prefer if I knew it from you. It's gonna be easier if i heard it from you first.

You can easily be drawn to a Scorpio boy. You are fascinated by his intense personality and you can have good conversations with him. He’ll also pay you a lot of attention and be complimentary to you. However, he has a seriously bad controlling side that will probably sink this relationship before it can get off the ground. The Scorpio boy always has to have his way. Even though you like it when someone makes decisions for you, you do like them to listen to your opinion. He won’t - he wants to call all the shots, and he thinks he’s always right. You won’t think so. He will also be very suspicious when you innocently flirt with other boys, and he will jump to the worst conclusions. You’re concerned with not only what looks good, but what makes people good. Scorpio boy is drawn to your beauty and need to run with the crowd. A workable pairing? Yes, as long as your social self can deal with the fact that sometimes, Scorpio boy will want to be left alone when you want to kick up your heels.
I hate it when we always quarrel, and how we end up in a cold war instead of resolving it in a mature way. Especially how we always wait for each other to make the first move, and how damn long you always take before you finally decide to contact me. Always through message instead of a call. You choose to avoid rather than face me. Correct me if i'm wrong. Everytime such things happen, everytime we quarrel, it makes me reconsider. It's a pity that i love you but you seem not ready to be in a relationship, or at least in front of me. I guess you know it yourself, the way you treat me does not reflect well. It makes me wonder how important our relationship is to you. How long more do we need before we can be much more than just being together in status? We need to learn to resolve our arguments. Quarrels, arguments, cold wars, black faces and sian-ness must not stay with us.

I seriously need to get things started. Like registering for school. And getting my march schedule out. Life's pretty slack nowadays, thanks to a somewhat generous pay rise and having only to work 12 days a month. Though it does involve some kind of personal expense. Oh wells, i guess in the real world, money does make the world go round. In fact damn round. But no big deal, it's not that big an opportunity cost anyway.

Love Test

Here is the analysis:

1. When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.
2. You give 0% to your relationship and expect to receive 100% in return.
3. If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself.
4. You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible.
5. If you don't like something from your loved one, you expect him or her to change for you.
6. When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.

Are you still thinking about your ex?

Here is the analysis: You have managed to sweep away any feelings you have left for your ex. You are fully recovered and you don't dwell in anguish over the memories of your times together. You are completely and happily in love with your current boyfriend/girlfriend. Although you may occasionally mention the name of past boyfriends/girlfriend, it will simply be because it relates to what you are talking about. The present moment is what you are interested in.


The Clothes You Wear

What others see from your style

Although to the untrained eye you may seem like a plain dresser who avoids trends, you actually wear carefully designed accessories and clothes that emphasize your uniqueness. You value your freedom and have an artistic mind. You are neither aggressive nor timid, but you believe in yourself.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.

What others see from your belts

You don't like to show your feelings. Normally, you are gentle and friendly, but you don't like socializing. It can be difficult to get to know you well, and you probably only have a few close friends.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are a hardworking people. You are serious and capable. You know what you want out of life, and you go after it.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

How well do you get along with others?

Here is the analysis:

You truly believe in friendship. You get along well with others, and those who are around you are happy to be with you, too. You love to be surrounded by friends and you'll do anything you can to help them without expecting anything in return. When your friends are smiling, you're as happy as you can be.

Here is the analysis:

1. Your future friend: People with mature and strong character attract you. Your close friends are usually a tigress or a tomboy.
2. Your travel plan: In the future, you will often take overseas trips especially to modernized countries. You will get to explore Europe and North Asia like you always wanted.
3. Your future financial status: You are a big spender! You always spend on friends and luxury goods without feeling guilty. No matter how much you earn, you churn to match it. Your credit cards get thinner and thinner from frequent swipes. The figure in your bank account is not what you enjoy seeing.
4. The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around.

What if your boyfriend goes out with another girl?

You are optimistic and take it easy. Eventually you will win him back.

When will you get married?

Here is the analysis:

You are curious about everything. You want to travel and accumulate experience. You want to prove yourself by carrying out challenging work. You may enjoy your unmarried life until you are 30 or over, even if you have had many boyfriends/girlfriends by then.

Nosy Level: 70%

You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.

Here is the analysis:

Bright and Cheerful

You are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

Half true

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Depends

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

Spot on

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

No idea

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

But no matter what, you still need an education before the second sentence can come true.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

Should be true

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

Haha, only if there's some sort of insurance that I'm can buy for failure. Or if I'm rich beyond measure.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Very true

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The time on my phone shows 1314.
It sounds like yi sheng yi shi if you say it in mandarin. Haha.
I'm just bored after coming back from lunch.
Okay, let's just create a to-do list.

1. Return library book
2. Call yuanshan
3. Sign timesheet
4. Take phone back from Mojo
5. Collect cert and register for school
6. Call LG and send in warranty
7. Pay phone bills
8. Pass ZS shirts and timesheet

That's it for the time being because I found something to do now.
Off to get myself a cuppa mocha and then to read the papers:)

I must save money. Haha. This is the first thought that came to my mind.

Anyway, think I'm gonna go back to doing camps for the entire month of February. For a start. Give it a try again before looking for something new to do. Unless a better offer comes along.

I'm pretty slack nowadays, compared to the past where I'd be out with friends almost every day after work, weekends included. Truckloads of activities, birthdays, trainings, shopping, movies, gatherings etc. Guess those busy days and late nights were happy, since i made sure it that every single day was fully packed with one thing or another. I knew i was cramming too much in my life all at once. But everyday was something new and exciting. I do relish those days. Haha.

I wonder what made the transition in me. Probably I'm more contented this way, with only gatherings once in a while. I get to spend more time with myself. Though it gets boring once in a while, at leasy I'm not caught up in a frenzy of activities anymore.

Things are more or less gonna resume once school starts. But this time i will know how to manage my time better:)

Fusionopolis rocks! It's an office building with restaurants, gym, foodcourt, supermarket, cafes and shops. Like a mini suntec towers kinda feeling.

Minus the Hugo suits and Gucci bags.

Pretty chilled-out kinda office environment, calm and spacious, bright and uplifting.
I wouldn't mind working here all the way till I start school again given the almost non-existent job scope. Hur hur. Seriously it's slack to the max here. With 3 computers and a supermarket downstairs, all i need is just a bed. I watch dramas and download mp3s all day long with just a 1 hour break during lunch. I treat myself to mochas, lattes and cappucinos from the superb coffee maker. Haha how i envy myself:)

In the unlikely case that this gets chanced upon by someone from higher management, I have to make clear that all slacking is purely unintentional :p

Firstly, the phone does not ring.
Everyone is entitled to a corporate mobile line so guests and visitors can contact them directly.

Secondly, the directional signs are just so foolproof that everyone can find their way around the office.

Thirdly, newpapers come only in the morning and it takes only 10 mins to sort and deliver to the 3 big shots (Chairman, CEO, Deputy CEO). The rest of the directors have their personal assistants to collect them.

In conclusion, my job is narrowed to stamping and receiving courier documents and hampers throughout the day, which needless to say, are sparse as well.

Haha the downside is probably i don't really come into contact with much pple since I'm situated rather far away from the main office. But no complains, this way I can do what i want:)

And it's only a half an hour journey from my house. Haha. This job rocks:)

I haven't cancelled anything off my wishlist yet *hint hint* :p

Hehe what a way to start a post. But i really want a new camera and an ipod classic. And that crumpler bag too. Hmm, a new laptop would be nice as well. Anyone? Early 21st birthday prezzie?

Haha. It seems that most people make their 21st birthday a grand affair.

What makes a birthday a heartwarmingly memorable one?

The element of surprise? The company? The tremendous effort and planning that went into it?

It's almost one month into the new year. Or rather not so new by now. I wonder what 2009 brings? The start of a new chapter definitely:) I can't wait to start school. Haha.

To me, this year means a refreshing makeover as well as a chance to put things right.

Seriously.

It's a revelation when your age no longer starts with a one in front and you know with that brings along greater responsibilities. Sounds cliche, i know. But it's the humble truth.

As a matter of fact, the uncertainties of the future do frighten me. Though on the bright side, I take comfort in knowing that the future is in our own making.

Just a simple resolution in 2009 will suffice - to manage school, CCA and relationships without neglecting any single one :)

Yup, it's down-to-earth and achievable. It's this simple to make the people important to me happy. My parents. My best friends. Not forgetting myself too:)

2009 is a year to love myself again. To grow as an individual. To be a joy to the people around me. And to harbour regrets no more.

One month down, eleven more to go:)

Supergirl returns!:D

i've never knew how hard it is to come up with new year resolutions.
or at least it didn't seem so hard in the past.
probably due to the fact that i've graduated out of school.
and my concerns have bludgeoned to more than merely performing in exams and cca commitments.

i'm hungry! hungryyy... and cold. double combo. must as well make it a triple. and stoney. good job.

anyway, spent the first half of the day at home. yeah, at home. haha, don't be so surprised. pretty fun though, playing around with my bro and baby sis.

and now i'm playing mj. again. haha.

and much as i don't feel like it, the next 2 days are gonna be spent at work. yup yup. carlton hotel. 8am - 5pm. anyone wanna come find me for lunch at raffles city?

and of course there's the long awaited gathering to look forward to. meeting yuquan and the rest on thursday nite. too bad i can't join you all for kbox. haha. but nonetheless, there's something waiting for me after work. yay:)

oh my, i'm like super braindead now. seems as if i'm talking to myself. but i'm gonna keep typing. haha. cos i'm bored and want to practise my typing. haha

and can you believe it. i'm actually talking to my bro on msn. and he's trying to act cute by showing me all his emoticons and getting me to bring home supper. a nuggets student meal.

hmm. the post is still not long enough.

ok, i'm wondering why hasn't sam called me. haha. it's alr 1030pm. and he said he's gonna call me again today to remind me about tmr. anyway, sam is my overly paranoid boss who will call me at least 3 times to remind me about his seminars. yup yup. but he's definitely a nice guy lah. just a lil over paranoid. haha. anyway, he's gonna be the sponsor for my new hair colour and highlights. yeah.

i'm still cold and hungry. oh my, i'm such a poor thing.

guess it's long enough. haha.

tata for now:)

dilemma.
work and family.
i really wanna go for the training camp.
but i dun want any anger and tension in the family as well.
so do the right thing.
and it's really hard.
so hard.

such that tears can just drop uncontrollably each time it comes to my mind.

and how right is right?
to put others before self, but deny oneself.
just wanna be alone.
nothing to worry about.
just want some time to let the hurt die down.
to let it all dissolve.

it's always the people who are dearest to you who loves you the most.
but the sad truth is -
they are also the ones who can hurt you the most.

not because they do it on purpose.
probably they think it's for your own good.
but the damage still exists nonetheless.

the longer it remains,
the greater the rift.
it's such an irony.
as whatever broken,
is so easy to mend.

just as a broken mirror.
the cracks never heal.
if no one does anything to make it better.

sometimes i think of the word family, as you all might know means - father and mother i love you. it just gives off the feeling of being loved.

i love my family, but i really dunno how to talk to my dad. please tell me how.

its getting real busy nowadays. barely a week back from indonesia, and i'm off to kota tinggi from this thursday to saturday. and i've been taking 2-3 students everyday since i'm back. grrr, why do examinations have to be around this season? but anyway, i'm even busier compared to the time when i was holding a full time job and giving tuition. so busy that i don't even have time to watch tv. yup, as u can see, i'm probably somewhat stressed as i'm typing this down. everyday is fully packed with one thing or another, and i'm skipping meals rather often nowadays. i need a holiday!

well for those who're wondering why am i going to kota tinggi, i'm bringing campers there for my first camp as a camp instructor!:D they're P6 students from radin mas pri sch, looking forward to meeting them in the morning:) and my next camp would be from next tuesday to friday on saint john island, with sec 2 campers from dunman high:) yup, so i'd basically be rather uncontactable during these 2 periods, probably can receive smses, but i might not reply lah:P

received my interview date from NIE yesterday, which incidentally coincides with my dunman camp. hopefully they would allow me to reschedule, otherwise i'd hafta say bye bye to my camp.

ah... i'm damn tired now after tuition sessions plus camp briefing this evening... and rushing to get my dad his bdae gift after briefing... i need to sleep! need to get up real early tmr morn...

well, it helps to think that doing so much work and tiring myself out pays off... in fact they pay off really well, especially in terms of sponsoring my somewhat excessive shopping trips:P haha. yup, so i shouldn't complain. if i wanna earn more, then i've gotta work extra hard for it right?:P

and i need to save up for a diving trip to bali in june. meaning more tuition and more camps! and anyone who knows of any home jobs... let me know please!:P

hey all! i'm now at the airport, just moments before i fly off:D so thought of doing a little update:)

omg i was so surprised to see you all at the airport! din know that you all were planning to send me off! thanks jen shihua and yuquan! you made my trip start off really really well!:D

anyway, blogging at the airport is rather stressful cos there's this timer thingy ticking away. grrr. and it says 8:45 mins left now. yup, so no long post today:P

hmm, i'm gonna be back next sunday so people don't miss me! till next week!

one more hour before i leave for my tuition sessions. let me try to recall the noteworthy things that happened recently:) hmm...

remember the laptop which died on me? yeah, it miraculously revived itself on friday night! at raffles city mos burger, just before ivan and i were going to bring it to funan. can u believe it? it died for 3 days and then miraculously decided to live again, like jesus christ, but anyway this is random..xP well well, and just as i thought that the problem is solved, it decided to die again at around midnight. super rubbish. and so the next day had to make a trip down to simlim after my tuition. grrr... the repair person said its some dunno what board problem that resulted in its intermittent startups. whatever. but it's going to cost 210 bucks to fix it... o.O

well, my life pretty much revolves around my tuition students (and their parents :P) nowadays, not that it's boring, but it's starting to get a teeny weeny bit mundane for me. oh no. need to find new stuff to do. some sort of motivation to rise and shine early in the morning, something for me to look forward to everyday. something more fulfilling than spending 2 hours teaching a P1 kid spelling. don't get me wrong though, not that teaching isn't fulfilling... but doing spelling for a straight 2 hours isn't exactly enjoyable:P

4 days countdown to my indonesia trip. and i haven't got my daypack, not the mention the freaking biodegradable shampoo. well and of course not forgetting the absolute essential, the trip to the supermart to stock up on snacks and chocs to last me through the trek:) ok, the preparation shall start tmr. after lunch with CNI pple:) decided to have lunch with them tmr afternoon, otherwise there won't be a chance to get everyone together cos clement's leaving on friday. and i've got OJT2 at jalan bahtera camp on friday 1-5pm. after that still need to check out alliance francaise courses somemore, and maybe collect the laptop also. hopefully i'll reach home with enough time to do some last minute packing:)

and oh no, i forgot the days i'm supposed to tutor my P1 kid? isit wed and thu? or thu and fri? grrr, how i wished i had saved the msn convo with her mum. its gonna be abit malu if i have to ask her mum again. cos that time i thought i could remember her address and so i did not bring that slip of paper out. well, i really could remember her address, just that i left out the unit number. so yeah... had to call up the mum... malu... hopefully her mum appears online tonight, then hopefully i can online tonight. after my tuition ends at 9.30, and when i reach home close to 11...

anyway, i think the traffic junction near my house is quite jinxed. 2 accidents in 1 week. big accidents, at the same spot somemore. you can see blood stains on the road if you really take a closer look. which i do everyday on the way home. tsk tsk. and both accidents happened during the morning rush hour, taking up all 3 lanes, causing me to be stuck in the jam - both times. how unlucky can one get? well, the scdf and paramedics did get to the scene within 10 mins. but it was like half an hour later before the vehicles got towed off the road and ceased being such a huge obstruction. i was shaking my head non-stop all the time when i was stucked on the bus. sighs. hopefully no more accidents occur at that traffic junction anymore.

and finally i got the stitch organiser!:D shihua was sooo nice to give it to me!:) omg love it sooo much, finally i've got something to help me to remember my tuition dates. haha.

well well... need to go for tuition alr. hope darren can still remember what i taught in the last session, otherwise have to do it all over again. and hopefully diana's mum would have swept the floor by now, i don't really wanna sit down on the super dirty floor... haha:P

for now, tata!:D

here i am at the united world college of south east asia, dover campus, level 4 office of admissions, second table from the door! yup, another one day assignment doing admin/ relief teaching. cosy campus, made me wish i was a student there:P lovely environment, friendly people - makes me feel so welcome. just half a day and i feel even more welcomed than my 2 months at continental. they even asked if i could extend for a month! haha stunned. i'm here only for a one day assignment and they want me to extend for a month? but seriously, i would if i could. if only i don't already have so many students on hand, plus all those camp assignments i signed up for. UWC pays well haha:P and the funky working environment is an advantage, plus those kindergarten kids. super kawaii! every single one of them!:D even the admin stuff wasn't boring, somewhat comparable to the stuff i did in CNI. margie (my supervisor for the day) asked me to compile a namelist of email addresses of parents invited for their parents' evening. and i was 'wow-ing' 9 out of 10 times as i went through the facility administrator to search the info database. the parents are either directors or presidents or at the very minimum some regional manager. and 98 out of 100 live in private property, with at least 75 percent of them residing in landed property. mostly around town area, may i add. wth lah. no wonder they have such a nice campus. and the facilities that the students enjoy? dream on, NJ students.

anyway, i had a rather interesting morning:) thanks dk for the morning call, otherwise i wouldn't be on time. oh ya, can someone explain to me why does it always rain on friday mornings? grr, i don't like rainy mornings. firstly, it makes it even harder for me to get out of bed. secondly, traffic jams. grrr. from my house to the interchange, only 2 bus stops away, could you believe that i was jammed there for 15 full mins? wth. and not to mention the jam on AYE. and to make things worse, the jam just outside UWC was even worse than the AYE jam. jam jam jam. sighs. government please do something can. underground expressways or something? well, but at least it was only some drizzle and not some torrential downpour. at least i could stand in the rain and hail a cab rite?:)

yup so as i was walking in to UWC, i passed by loads of cars. as in expensive cars. almost every single one of them had in-built tv screens. haha, reminds me of that time when my dad was contemplating whether to install one in our old car but in the end decided not to. well anyway the drivers are mostly mums driving their precious kids to school. and i counted 11 buses full of UWC kids as i went in. haha okay random. but i miss taking the school bus:P

well anyway, almost lunch break now, got someone to pack something for me. will try to put up another post at the end of my work day:) haha. hmm, maybe i could use my lunch break to explore around the school a little:P or maybe i should just continue with this post, since i was computer deprived for 2 days? haha. i totally love the huge lcd desktop moniter right in front of me. huge. haha, if i had a ruler now, i would definitely measure how big it is. hmm maybe i'm really a mountain tortoise, but this is the biggest screen i've ever seen. computer screen i mean:P well, everything about this desktop is wonderful, fast speed and everything, but... haha there is no msn. if there is, then it'd be perfecto! haha, eunice's infectious lingo, not a typo:P

oh ya, another thing i forgot to add on earlier. this little interesting part of my morning. haha. when i reached UWC, i was directed to the reception. i was supposed to look for catherine and so the receptionist made a phone call to inform her. and... catherine said that she wasn't expecting anyone from the agency! scare me lah. i knew i couldn't have made a mistake regarding the reporting date so called up the agency to check. but anyway, after all the trouble, it was just a problem of miscommunication. tsk tsk. yeah so here i am, at UWC level 4 office of admissions:) haha.

okie, another post later:)

ahh. the laptop died on me. grrr. not that i did anything to it, but it just died on me. someone tell me how do i revive a laptop that can't even be started. since tuesday evening. shan't say more. feel soooo pathetic that the desktop is locked with my dad's freaking password. and guess what? he disabled the lan connection when he knew that i was using the internet through it. not that i can use it now that the laptop died rite? anyway, it just means no internet. not even a comp to play games. i've watched 6 movies in 2 days already, tell me what else can i do to pass time? now i'm hoping that my mum returns from china asap, so that i can leave the house, so that at least there's someone to talk to. well, i can't really understand what my domestic helper says and my baby sis can't speak.

sighs. i'm leaving in one week's time, and i haven't even prepared a single thing. not to mention the trainings that i've missed.

i need to start packing my luggage.

i need to get an organiser.

i want to sign up for 2 star asap.

i hope my first camp assignment comes immediately after i come back from indonesia.

i hope my students stop changing tuition dates.

and on a totally different subject. what's it with people and subliminal messaging?

wells, gotta log off before my dad comes back and sees that i've hacked into his desktop. tata.

Here it goes~

Instructions:

Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.

Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.


1. At what age do you wish to marry?

haha what's the purpose of this question though? but anyway, ideally, propose at 29, wedding at 30. non-ideally, then in my early thirties:) well the idea is to take my time:) i have no wish to get married early:)

2. What is one thing that you desperately want to learn?

haha, i wanna learn many things. but first i wanna start with french:) next up hip hop, then powerboat. of cos not forgetting my kayaking:)

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 buddies you would take with you?

in no order of preference - linda, ivan and piak. linda, for entertainment and heart-to-hearts. ivan, for his intellect, logic and common sense which no doubt would be needed if we're really stranded on an island. piak, for adventure (like exploring the island and building sampans) and doing stupid things.

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?

heaven? haha but that would have to wait though:P hmm, given a choice to choose a travel destination, probably italy. and the entire of europe hopefully?:P

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

build up a successful company with a strong social responsibility:) and hopefully retire by 40?

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

somewhat true. but i believe that you have to search for the rainbow, not wait blindly and hope it appears right before your eyes.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?

my life. i have so many things that i want to do, i can't die now. haha.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

ten percent to God. ten percent to my family. twenty percent into savings. 500 thousand into investment. remaining 100 thousand goes into fulfilling question 5. and not forgetting gifts for everyone:)

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?

highly unlikely. unless he's worth it, and only if i'm 100 percent sure he's interested too. haha if not later confess le, then kena rejected, will be super malu rite? but then again, if i'm 100 percent sure that he's also interested, then i wouldn't have to confess rite? i can just wait for him to take the first step rite? hmm. haha i dunno. wait for me to meet someone i really love:P

10. What are three requirements that you wish from your other half?

personal autonomy - i need space and freedom. commitment - to make our relationship work and last. selflessness - to give of oneself unconditionally. and i think these three would have to be mutual.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?

those who achieve their motive through unscrupulous means cos the end does not justify the means. and those who hurt others on purpose.

12. What is your ambition?

question 5 again:D plus love and life.

13. If you have a fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

point it out to me, supported with examples. in a nice way of course, privately.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

hmm. i think everything is important in one way or another. i mean, life is all the small things put together.

15. Are you a shopaholic?

haha much as i would like to deny it, yesss... ...

16. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.

dhika - active

shihua - perceptive

yuquan - realistic

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?

that part of me that pushes things till the last minute - procrastination... and the tendency to brush off problems easily.

18. Is there anything that you have done that makes you regret?

duh. obviously. countless.

19. What is the weirdest thing you have done?

haha countless. can't remember.

20. What is one crazy thing you wish you had the courage to do?

leave home?

for a moment i wondered if it's the 13th today. cos if it's not friday the 13th, then why on earth am i soooo down on my luck today? on second thoughts, i have no idea either.

yup so this morning i was supposed to report for this one day assignment at the science park at 8.30am. i was ready to leave home by 7.15am and it started raining - lions and tigers. i mean, if its just cats and dogs then i would have left home. well since i'm going to this unfamiliar place and if i had to search for the building in the rain, then might as well take a cab rite? yeah, so i waited till 7.30am before leaving home, thinking i could take a bus to the interchange before taking a cab to science park. and for goodness sake, the buses that came were soooo fully packed that no one could board! and by the time i managed to board its already 8am. wth lah. and it took 10 mins just to reach the interchange which is only 2 bus stops away? super wth. well, the worst came at the taxi stand. has anyone ever waited 50 mins for a cab at a taxi stand??? and i couldn't even get through to the cab-booking hotline throughout the 50 mins. damn 6552-1111. i can't believe it. and i thought it was hard enough to get a cab in jurong island. then rite, still got jam on the expressway somemore. how unlucky can a person get. somemore don't have client's number so cannot call to inform that i'll be late. and call lyne also no use, cos she's not in office yet. wah lao. super wth can. the only consolation was probably the cab fare. from jurong to science park its only 16 bucks including the 35% peak hour surcharge? i was expecting 30 bucks, haha and you know what from jurong to jurong island, it cost 13 bucks. so weird.

but all in all, it doesn't change the fact that i was 50 mins late for my one day job. its not about the money lost, but more of the fact that i've left a negative impression on the entire HR dept. no matter how well i perform in the job throughout the day, the first impression still matters. if only i have more time to change their impression through my actions. grrrr... but too late.

and i was back 13 mins late from lunch somemore. talking about consequences. samy skipped lunch cos of me. his patrol was delayed cos of me. sighs. and somemore my lunch wasn't lunch. cos i had to pack it back to office.

to sum up my morning and afternoon. it was totally rubbish.

ok enough of complains. more on the company in the next few posts. its really a nice working environment - swiss company somemore, great benefits:P maybe next time i can go and apply for their HR dept, hopefully they would have forgotten me by then. the HR head is rather cool, hmm even more cool than henry, the HR head in my ex-company.

so my previous entry accounted only till last saturday morning of my life:) and this post shall account for what comes after sat morn - which is - saturday afternoon. haha.

sat afternoon was fun - firstly cos I WENT BACK SCH TO SEE THE JUNIORS DO PA EVENT! secondly cos there's HSIANGWEI, HUZI, NIC AND MY LEVON! haha:D super fun that afternoon/evening, think i super irritated siyuan - cos we kept talking. though i wasn't really the one talking to everyone (erm maybe i was really the one:P)... haha... but i guessed my presence there really distracted the crew. i think siyuan must be bashing me up mentally. haha. i seriously think so, but too bad he can't do anything though:P luckily nothing went wrong, if not i'd really feel bad. though boy boy was the one who kept kena distracted away from the lighting board:P when levon and nic came, we had a great time reading through boy boy's message inbox. haha. super funny. his mum sent him a message asking him to be careful on april's fool day and not to let his friends trick him. haha, levon said his mum should sent a message to warn his friends not to be tricked by him instead. and i hafta agree that its true. haha:)

well well, anyway, after event, as per norm, PA after-event dinner! hehe, crawled out the main gate, underneath the freaking heavy red metal gate (which was almost always closed and i hafta walk main gate:P)... how come nobody told me that we can actually squeeze UNDERNEATH it??? grrr, then i could have saved all those trips walking to the main gate! but nvm, its not too late i guess? haha. next time:P hmm, go read hsiangwei or dhika's blog to read abt my ordeal through the gate. haha.

well well, so we boarded bus 174 when it came, going to suntec:) and on the bus, grrrr, they made me feel soooo stupid. like super duper stupid. AHHHH. super stupid. with games that i dunno how to play... like totally nooooo idea? and till now, i still have noooo idea... grrr... someone teach me! soooo stupid can?

anyway, by the time we reached, not many choices left. so we settled for swensen's. ordered quite some stuff - a party platter, 2 pastas, 1 macaroni thingy, 1 pizza and loads of drinks:) yeah and of course not forgetting nic's birthday cake! a swensen's cookies and cream icecream cake!:D hehe, we took a super long time to have our dinner, to the extent that the waiters looked so irritated with us... hmm perhaps cos its alr 1030pm haha. well, so we were sort of chased out by them? meaning we had to dabao the 2 chicken wings and the icecream cake away. levon and i faster divided the cake using the swensen knives before they could take it away for packaging:P yeah anyway, we lugged the cake to the esplanade, found some nice place to sit down (or maybe it wasn't really nice cos there's this couple doing 'things' just a few metres away from where we were sitting - see no evil!:P) only to realise that we need cutlery to eat up the cake! i mean, if its just a normal cake, we could have just used our hands - but its an icecream cake! a melting icecream cake somemore:P

haha, so where to find cutlery at 11pm at night at the esplanade? our mr yap went off to search for them, and he asked this old uncle and auntie at some kiosk selling snacks and drinks nearby. haha, as usual, they spoke to him in mandarin:P but anyway, elaine to the rescue. we managed to get 7 spoons. the uncle and auntie super nice, gave us 7 spoons even though we didn't buy anything from them:P

yup, so we managed to finish the cake... with some little boy/girl adventure in between:P rather late already and everyone walked to the mrt tgt:) guess what? last train left. only got some train to kranji... yup and this marks the start of another adventure. haha, so the smrt-ers and the night riders parted ways at the station. and the night riders went off in search of their bus stops.

yeah, and like wth. everywhere only got ziquan's NR6, but no NR3 and NR5! grrr. hsiangwei levon and i walked from city hall mrt to SMU to park mall to somerset! and finally we found our bus stop behind wisma atria. like finally... everyone else had reached home, and we just found our bus stop. wonderful rite. but anyway, halfway through waiting, boy boy and i sneaked off to scam some vending machine behind wisma, right under the security cam, and with some construction workers from the site nearby as audience. haha. we were quite guai lah, only scammed 3 bottles:P one for me, one for boy boy, one for levon:)

and i guessed it was some sort of bad karma (cos we scammed the machine earlier) that we had to wait SUPER long before our NR5 came. think like more than half an hour? wth lah. so many empty night riders drove past, but not one was ours. and when it finally came, can u believe it, it was damn full. FULL. luckily the both of us could still squeeze in. and after us, no one could board. haha. yeah anyway, guess what? my stop is the last one and i reached at 2.30am. we left city hall mrt at 12am i think? should have taken a cab. grrr. and my dad was quite angry with me, and poof - there goes my atm card AGAIN. but this time for good.

but anyway, i totally enjoyed everything! super duper fun. reminds me of the days when we were juniors and how the seniors made PA soooo fun for us:D addicted to PA! haha:)

yesterday was another day blissfully spent in leisure, pretty enjoyable despite the boredom. haha. online the entire morning to early afternoon doing stupid things, before going back to ntu in the late afternoon:)

nothing much has changed in CNI, but didn't get to see some ayu farezah ann and sonali. think they were outside doing some event-related stuff. high-class event okay. the refrigerator was loaded with bottles of expensive wine... and jess offered me a glass but i was in a rush, haha. and on the pantry counter were sparkling mineral water from some high-class brand in glass bottles. mineral water also need to be liddat, haha.

anyway, i was there to get my letter and to rush to the emei mountain before it closes. and i only have 10 mins to do so. basically in a frenzy, thanks to clement whose holepuncher and pens i koped. and for sharmala and kweechai's directions to emei mountain haha. cheong there and lucky i met some guy who said he could collect it from me. yay. haha. ntu application settled:D (anyway, emei mountain refers to the hill where the student services centre is located, courtesy of clement and kweechai:P)

and then rite, i realised that i had to take a super long way back to office cos i don't have an access card and can't pass through the passageway which i came from. grrr. and so, the long way i took. grrr. by the time i returned, jess left le.... aiya, nv properly thank her for all the trouble she took to help me with the letter, including contacting russell who's overseas and getting him to send his electronic signature over. thanks sooo much!:D well, after that then hanged around in office with the 2 guys in which i basically fed myself with ice water to cool down from the mountain climbing. haha. and guess what, judy just had to come in at this time, and the 3 of us jumped. haha. judy is the dean:P

anyway, clement said he's leaving CNI le, last day is 25th. yeah all the best, so lucky u found a better job with higher pay and some more just an overhead bridge opposite your house. haha. and we settled next tuesday i can go back and have lunch tgt with everyone! haha like the old days:) jen jen! can you come also?:P

haha anyway, i'm still bored. dhika is now in my house giving tuition to my brother. haha, he's so serious.

haha i think it's the first saturday since the start of this year that i've got no programme at all. maybe i could get started on preparing some challenging questions for my sec 3 girl's tuition tmr afternoon. maybe...

next monday and tuesday is gonna be busy. monday morning go smu submit documents, afternoon go buy party stuff, late afternoon go for camp high achievers interview which last 3 hours and comprises written oral and practical components (grrrr....) and evening go celebrate birthday for onioni-san and huahua:) tuesday go ntu for lunch and after that got tuition. ok, the pace is picking up next week, and you people wouldn't have to listen to me complain that i'm bored anymore:P yay, and i can go get my donuts on monday!:)

yeah. i haven't been unemployed, whether its by choice or not, since after prom. grrr. yeah and so here i am, unemployed. thought i would like it, but 4 days of it is enough to convince me otherwise. i'm done with searching for home assignments, as most are scams. a total waste of time. not that i don't have any to spare though. but nonetheless, for the seemingly lack of activities to occupy myself with, i did accomplish something. okie, it's not that much of an accomplishment, but yeah, 2 new students! 2 p6 kids in clementi. 2 sessions per week, think one and a half hour each time:) accepted below market rate though the person offered me 25 per hour. haha dunno why, i offered 20 bucks instead. well, its a church i guess. its not abt the money:) loveeeee kids:) perhaps i should have applied for relief teaching in pri sch right from the start. haha. well. too late to regret anyway.

okie, back to the fact that i'm umemployed. what do you call voluntary unemployment? hmm, but come to think of it, being a full-time tutor is also a job rite? hmm haha, but my income is unrecorded in the government's GDP!

well i've thought of what to do tmr:) haha and don't tell you. hehe, so that you all will come back and read my blog tmr. haha:P

its raining lions and tigers here, and sort of disrupted my plans for the day. can't go out le. but just as well, i settled my stuff over the phone:) so no need to go out:) i loveee the phone!:)

and haha, finally got to chat with jen jen online! in the past 2 years i've known her, think we've spoken on msn like less than 10 times? haha can u believe it?:P yeah i love my onioni-san... and i rmb that my last line with her was 'haha byebye oni-oni-san!'... heh hehs... it rhymes so well:P can't wait to find a time to get out and become crazy with her again! long time since we did that:)

yeah, and of course my ever blur blur oyuq and huahua! haha, must be something to do with the weather... rainy day and i started missing you all again. when are we finally going to come out ah? haha, this sat cannot. this sun cannot. hopefully next mon can:) okie?

yeah, and of course the long awaited clique outing haha. which is postponed to june? haha. can't wait too:) and when we meet again, all the crap and gossip will come spilling again haha.

haha, think i'm going mad. haha dunno why feel like singing happy bdae to myself. and i feel like listening to white christmas. haha. mad mad mad. maybe thats how a person on holiday is supposed to feel haha.

anyway, i wonder what everyone is doing now. i hope the people at my dear huahua's new office will start to appreciate her and treat her nicer:) and for onioni-san and my ah girl oyuq, haha assignment's ending soon! soon you'll become like me and i'm sure you'll enjoy the lifestyle of an unemployed:P and to the pple at cni, thanks alot!:) hmm and i wonder how meijun is doing. i need to send her an email tmr morn haha.

okie. i'm no longer an underpaid, overworked and under-stimulated worker. teaching tuition full-time pays well, but the problem is - i've got too much free time on hand! too much time for myself. such that i'm going to look for home assignments. now that i don't dare to take in anymore students cos i'm afraid i might not be able to cope with sch work once uni starts. assuming i get in, see, depressing.

well well, today i woke up feeling rather philosophical. haha. deep thoughts. maybe its bcos i'm at a stage where i need to decide what i want out of life. no idea where i got this belief from, but i think that if you wanna achieve something, you've gotta thinking abt it now. meaning, i've gotta start thinking about what i want 5 years or 10 years down the road, NOW. such that your choices and decisions can guide you to what u wanna achieve. such that you have more time to deliberate and decide if it is what you really want. well i guess i have an idea, but its no more than a rough guide. i don't think its hard to achieve what i want in life. BUT I NEED TO GET A DEGREE FIRST. grrr. hopefully.

anyway, now i'm wondering why am i complaining that i'm bored. i wished for my assignment to end when i was still working in continental. i seriously need to find something fulfilling to do. maybe something like creating a blog for my sis. like the parents of cleo and clie:) i could also start painting again, like go down to singapore river to do a watercolour. its been so long since i've drawn or painted something. or maybe i could just go kbox.

now i sound like some person with no motivation in life. grrr. elaine! go find something to do!

haha reply to my tagboard. haha dhika why you not happy. hmm nothing of concern to my life story cos i guess my life its not exactly in an admirable state? haha, dowan to depress you readers with what's going on in my life:P oh no, but i'm still depressed over it.

well i should stop going on abt it. on a happier note, my life sort of going in the direction i planned, minus the ONE thing. grrr. see, i'm depressed again. you people want stuff abt my life story rite? haha, so here it goes:

well, i want more PA outings, more kayaking, more jobs, more EVERYONE outings, and the lists goes on indefinitely! ok, perhaps the one thing i need is more time. with an average bedtime between 12.30 to 4.30am for the past 13 days, with 3am being the mode... i definitely need more sleep. or perhaps God should make the days shorter and the nights longer?:p

anyway, back to my life. PA outing was great, a success:) though it wasn't very well planned, i guess it went alright haha:p as usual, everyone was 'anything-ing' me... but well, we did manage to get everyone to meet, have dinner and get into the cinema on time! yeah, and this is all that matters. and of course i'm happy cos you all enjoyed it:) MORE TO COME!:P

another thingy would be my one star kayaking! totally enjoyed the 2 days! and i want more! i love being out to sea, and in the sea... as long as there are no sharks and jellyfishes that is:P

ahhh.. is this enough for you dhika? grrr, i dowan to try to recall anymore haha..

haha making use of my last moments in Continental to blog. feels so normal/weird... i don't know. normal as in everyone still goes on with what they've been doing. weird cos i'm used to farewells and that there isn't any. not that i care though. but it just feels weird. tells alot abt the company culture. and surprisingly, i could walk around the entire day normally, like as if its not my last day there. no byes, nothing. haha i even wonder at times if people do realise that its my last day today. but anyway, i've learnt much from this job, things that you don't get to experience in other companies. i've been trained to be so accustomed to meeting strangers, holding my stand in negotiations with suppliers and much more. perhaps the way to force a person to learn and grow up is just to throw him/her into the wild and stormy sea. either you learn to survive, or just give up and die.

yeah. by popular demand, i'm back. haha, i feel like some star blogger you know. heh heh. nice feeling, how i wish i am:) yeah anyways, probably you all know the reason for my blogging absence is cos i'm a busy girl. hmm, sounds rather weird to address myself as a girl. okaes, i'm a busy person:P

yeah anyways, many things happened during my absence. in fact too many. good things. bad things. but for the bad part, be rest assured that i'm over it k. maybe. haha. hopefully.

ok well. mostly i'm troubled about this ONE thing. again, i've done things to land myself in a situation i can't get out off. or to be more exact, i'm disappointed in myself... for not remembering the promise that i've made to myself, for doing things that i'll regret.

perhaps its the situation that i've landed myself in. it makes me feel so helpless, entirely no control over anything that could make things better. uncertainty in life is good, but too much of it, i'm not so sure then. well, at least there's still some hope that i can cling on to. even a tiny glimpse of it.

i've never felt so determined in my life before. and should i get through this. i'm gonna make the best of it. i've never wanted anything more and should i get it, i'm really gonna do more than my best. trust me.

and to everyone who's been with me, the phone calls, the msgs, the dinners and outings to make me feel better. i really appreciated it. everytime i feel like crying, i think of the things you all have done to make me feel better. and my heart feels warm again, and the tears will go away. you all make me feel loved, thank you.

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

You scored Visual & Performing Arts

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in the Visual or Performing Arts (e.g., Art, Art Education, Art History, Ceramics, Culinary Arts, Dance, Drawing, Fashion Design, Film, Graphic Design, Interior Design, Marketing (advertising), Music, Music Education, Music Theory, Painting, Photography, Theatre).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Visual&PerformingArts
94%
HR/BusinessManagement
88%
Education/Counseling
81%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage
81%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing
81%
Psychology/Sociology
75%
English/Journalism/Comm
69%
Religion/Theology
69%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health
63%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy
56%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts
56%
Physics/Engineering/Computer
44%
Mathematics/Statistics
31%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology
25%

i'm damn sure that the green tea smells like seaweed.
but anyways, i'm bored. going to watch leap years tmr after training, can't wait! checked out the filmgarde cinema at kallang leisure park, seems alright, no bad reviews yet, so thinking of giving it a try - only to find out dhika posted on PA blog that we're meeting at vivo instead. dots. lets see how's the turnout rate, if there's only the few of us, then we'll go filmgarde ok?:p anyways, i called up the filmgarde person earlier on to ask about the rates. they charge 7.50 on weekdays and 9.50 on weekends. like wth? can you believe it? ok, i can't. cos i expected them to charge probably around 6-7 bucks. i mean, if you expect people to patronise your ulu cinema, you've gotta provide some incentives rite? dangle your carrots please.
today is maureen's last day, as well as kyi win's. wei wei left last week, and so that leaves the turnover rate this month at 3. one down from last month. next month, i'll be leaving, belinda too, and i think ting ning also. and FYI, effective 1st march, continental bioenergy and continental chemicals will merge as one. fion says miss tham is gonna be finance head over both companies, and it might gonna be harder for me. hmm. we'll see about that. so what to expect will be someone questioning me over each and every single item that i raise for PR. compared to theresa, who will approve everything i raise. as in EVERYTHING. no questions asked. and it just so happened that i have to order ALOT of things next week - stationery, groceries, print envelopes and make rubber stamps. grrr. paperwork.

boring. lunchtime now. shrimp flavour instant noodles today. anyways, last night's training at commonwealth was great:) somewhat intense, but you'd get that sense of achievement only if it's challenging enough. 6 repetitions almost drained us, haha, i wonder how are we going on to achieve 9? hopefully we'll get through it. the trick is to just go on and on mindlessly haha. and keep reminding yourself that dinner is waiting for you after training:p

well i'm so glad that it's friday today. i'm an underpaid, under-challenged and under-stimulated office worker. i'm bored.

haha thats a BK chicken burger, but the sticker says FISH. dots.


haha, CNY greetings sent to my company. the hanyu pinyin is.... tsk tsk *shakes head*


At Jurong Point, these guys are trying to push that car through the door. MANUALLY.


that's mediacorp filming at carl's junior suntec. tay ping hui is there too haha. too bad i'm not a fan of his:p


haha and this is this funny taxi driver who adjusted his seat damn close to the steering wheel.

wells, elaine is going to post 5 pics a day:) from now onwards. haha:)

half an hour till knock off. before i meet shihua for training + meet piak to fill out my form.

can you believe it? DHL sent me 5 copies of the exact same thing. like wth. opened the same damn thing 5 times. there's no need to send me 5 letters just to inform me that you have a new customer service officer who's going to contact me shortly. dots.

eew. i just drank a cup of tea. green tea. which smelled like seaweed. but still tasted like green tea. imagine eating rice which smelled like noodles. lousy analogy. but then you get the idea. it jumbles your senses haha. interesting. i'm gonna make another cup.

recently i've been waking up in the morning feeling HAPPY. like ridiculously happy. and every morning i wonder why am i so HAPPY. then i feel silly for being HAPPY. probably becos i'm experiencing the silly kind of happy... i mean there are many kinds of 'happy' in the world. then i walk around with that silly happy look on my face. haha. i look silly. like someone with amnesia. who forgets all her worries. who has solutions to all her problems. how i wish. its so easy to tell others not to worry, but what about practising it yourself? when there's a problem that can't be solved, some people run it through their minds non stop, some people stop harping on it and focus on something else, and some people just suppress it.

anyways, i have a question. what is it that makes people click? what is the determining factor that decides the relationship one has with others? as in, what makes you great friends with someone but probably just acquaintances with another?

i cleared most stuff alr. left some for mee chin. hmm, i always have to resist a laugh whenever i recall her name. anyways, to sum it up, i'm ready to handover everything (i think so?:p) haha. meaning i'm bored again. as usual. and as i'm typing this, the DHL guy is at my counter wrapping up a bottle consisting 95% glycerine for courier over to continental thailand. but never mind him.

anyways, fion gave me a can of cookies handmade by her mum:) tastes super nice! so must slowly eat, such that it'll last me till my last day. at work i mean. which sadly will be extended thanks to lyne- i'll touch upon it another time. bleah.

well, why do we crave for food? other than the fact that its an essentiality for survival? perhaps the question should be phrased this way - why do we crave food over and above the 3 main meals? isit a biological need or just a display of a weak mind? cos if its biological, i would be able to justify my consumption of countless packs of biscuits and a whole apple - from 9am to 1030am. and i still have another fuji apple in my bag. and cos not forgetting the cup of teh tarik cum milo cum coffee that ever present beside my desktop.

15 mins more before i leave the office. looking forward to watch leap years this saturday. though i feel like a little cheated - the movie is only 103 mins if i'm not wrong. this better be worth it.

went to watch ps i love you with shihua last fri night under the influence of yawen.
i wouldn't say its boring, but i can't exactly say its interesting either.
its entertaining enough to catch my attention throughout, at least i didn't feel my mind drifting away. but its somewhat lacking in terms of the depth of the movie, it didn't really provoke any thoughts or inspire anything in me. the lack of twists and climaxes is no doubt what made the movie rather mundane, and i guess the only redeeming factor is hillary swank's acting. she's good, i somehow felt her grief, and she made me cry buckets. not throughout the show of course. you must think it sounds stupid, but i was actually debating whether should i hold back my tears or just let them flow freely. not that holding them back is a difficult thing for me, in fact its very easy to do so. but i guess i was feeling rather emotional compared to other days, and also cos there's no need to put up any sort of facade when i'm with shihua... and yes, as usual, i feel a little stupid to allow myself to cry for no good reason haha. ok, no need to analyse why, lets just leave it at that.
to those who're thinking of catching this movie, its alright if you have nothing to do and just wanna find something to spend the day.

1. i had a subway cookie for breakfast. yummy!
2. continental chemicals and continental bioenergy hit a record high of $27.40 for total lunch orders today
3. i had chicken flavoured instant noodles for lunch. elaine's 'spend less money' campaign:)
4. i'm halfway through completing my stationery inventory - since last week
5. i need to get started on a pantry inventory
6. status of my SOP report for HR - half done - since 2 weeks ago
7. if its any consolation - i cleared the dhl and singtel mails (ps: cos its easier)
8. i've got 4 freaking mosquitoes bites today
9. i ate 2 blueberry tartlets today
10. i drank my special teh tarik mixture today
11. the visitors from citibank are cool, though they were 45mins late haha
12. i'm freaking bored
13. the new girl replacing me is called mee chin
14. i'm bored
15. BORED
16. BORED!!!!!
17. shit, why do i have to remember that i need to do filing for the Jurong Island passes now?

What Wong Sze Min Elaine Means

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

yay. i caught the bus today. applause please!:p
anyways, funnily, no monday blues today haha. probably subconsciously i'm already celebrating the fact that in 2 weeks time, i'm gonna be out of the company! *drumrolls with much fanfare*
i'm gonna reject theresa's request for me to extend till the end of march, don't think i can stand another 2 weeks haha. and surprisingly, although HR hasn't sent out any emails to inform the staff that i'm leaving, almost the entire company knows about it already haha. wells, 2 weeks to look for a new job:) any intros?
anyways, i think the freaking mosquitoes in my company were most prob elated to see me back in office today after starving over the weekend. so they had a great breakfast feast, which was on me, as usual. 8 FREAKING BITES. wth. talk about company welfare. grrr. kill all the mosquitoes in the whole wide world!
nothing much over the weekend, same thing, training at bukit timah nature reserve before gg to the NTU talks at suntec. and of course not forgetting the long march from suntec to beach rd food centre - we had no idea how long a stretch beach rd occupies haha.
almost 10am now, need to go take lunch orders from everyone liao. will be back later:)

haha. i can't help but laugh at myself after reading my first post to my latest one. you think of the things you've done/said and you wonder 'why on earth did i ever do it?'. and you're reminded of the things that once matter so much to you, and yet you don't give it a damn nowadays. you think about the people going in and out of your life, and you wonder how are they right now? and you so regret the harsh words spoken in the past, cos you can't take it back anymore. haha can't believe how childish i was.

haha, yes. as the title goes, i had a WONDERFUL vdae and a WONDERFUL weekend. thanks pple for the vdae msgs and gifts, really sweet of you all.
anyways, met up with jen jen, shihua and oyuq at cine and we had a GREAT time, i really did haha. we were pretty crazy, and oyuq was blur blur as usual, then jen jen kept saying stuff with no links haha. didn't know we had so much to talk about, so much so that i couldn't bear to part:p i love you all loads! so when are you all coming to my house?:D
and i also met up with esther and guess who? XIAO THONG!!! haha haven't seen her for 3 long years, i miss her so much and finally we got to meet up! thanks esther for organising it! we met at kovan which is one stop away from hougang, like wth haha... and the thing is we all live in the west. crazy idea rite? all the way there just to eat xin wang, when there are other nearer outlets haha. well, xiao thong insisted that its the nicest outlet:p
hmm, talking about my weekend, went trekking bukit timah hill with shihua and her aunt and her aunt's colleagues! AND I'M GOING TO MT RINJANI IN INDONESIA WITH SHIHUA! terms and conditions as listed by my parents are: elaine has to save 1000 bucks in the bank. elaine pays her dad 300 bucks. elaine gives her mum around 200 plus bucks. elaine gives around 400 plus to church. excluding the 900 bucks required for the trip. so all in all elaine needs almost 3000 bucks. should be no problem if kelly services PAYS ME NOW. please please faster bank in my pay!!! i need to register fast! and i'm gg to go down to kelly services after work to get extra timesheets as well as to rush them to PAY ME!!!
okays, probably you realised this post is like SUPER RUSHED. haha cos theresa's rushing me to help her AGAIN. need to go now. will be back later!

back from lunch. heck the bills and postage and stationery checks:p maybe tmr haha. its time to create a checklist. else everything gets put off and nothing gets done.

anyways, happened to look out the glass panes at this moment and saw the SITA pest control pple arrive. YAY-ness. Kill all the mosquitoes in the whole wide world. Or at the very least, get them to bite something else, like plants or non-living things. i've got 4 mosquito bites this morning, and i'm the only person in this entire building to get bitten. talk about getting lucky, the odds are 1 to 20. tsk tsk.

wells, lunch was much more enjoyable than usual cos of the yusheng:) ting ning got it from the jurong point jap fiesta, damn nice man, its even nicer than the shangri-la one. thick sumptious slices of fish, yummy. and generous servings of crackers some more! one of the nicest yusheng i've ever tasted:) anyways, thats about it, pics next time, forgot to bring cable again. the company should consider upgrading to bluetooth desktops you know.

feeling pretty lighthearted today. procrastinated a little in the morning, as usual haha. so gonna update the bills and do filing only after lunch, hopefully i've enough time cos i predict lunch is going to be extended today. ting ning is getting yu sheng today! not that i'm a particular fan of yu sheng, but i'm still excited haha. ting ning is so ting ning today, if you get what i mean. she made some comment that the office is so dead despite the new year, why not get some yusheng for lunch to liven the atmosphere? and so she grabbed her car keys and out of the entrance she went. WOW. sounds pretty much like me, only if i have a car too. thats the kinda life i wanna live you know, its so spontaneous!

anyways, to recount my morning, everything's fine & normal except for a minor (or perhaps not so minor?) incident. haha, i became a meat pattie this morning. sandwiched between ting ning and miss neo. shall keep the long story short so here's the story in point form:

1. miss neo sent an email to ting ning on monday 11th feb to book the board room on 13th feb
2. ting ning replied miss neo that she's no longer in charge of admin and that she should further her future enquiries to me and theresa
3. i booked the board room for miss neo. i thought cased closed.
4. i check this morn only to realise my booking was superceded by CEO's secretary who is ting ning (cos 2 CEOs are coming for meeting and they want the board room)
5. miss neo's guests (from singapore customs) arrived, but no board room for them.
6. miss neo ask me why board room occupied. i have no answer.
7. miss neo gets angry. i sense a storm coming. oh no.
8. miss neo scold ting ning in front of me.
9. ting ning scold miss neo in front of me.
10. i dunno what to do.

yup thats about it. and soon after miss neo sent an email to everyone. here it goes. not sure if i can do this but heck.

Dear All,

FYI.

Please arrange any boardroom booking with the reception as in procedure below.

In the event should there be overlap in bookings, Kindly keep the respective party inform so that they can make alternate arrangments.

Always perform PROFESSIONALLY where-ever you are or where-ever you will be heading to.

Thank-you for your co-operation.

Cheers-Neo

sighs. whats with middle-age women? its just a misunderstanding or an overlook on a party's side, why kick up such a big fuss? hopefully thats the end, i mean miss neo already had her 'mini revenge' through the email. and ting ning was gracious enough to overlook this action of hers. well, its not very nice to be suan-ed in this manner. sighs, better keep myself out of this matter. meat patties only get squashed.

i'm not gonna talk about work today. part VIII will be up tmr instead.

anyways, was reading pple's blogs. started from dhika's before hopping around everywhere else. wished i had started reading dhika's blog earlier, cos people do post stuff they usually don't talk about on their blog. or somehow you can feel what the other party is experiencing at a point of their life, that is if you try to read between the lines.

wells, haven't done what i did earlier for ages. cos blog reading, as in reading others' blogs somehow makes me depressed. i wonder if anyone feels this way too. i agree reading blogs is a great way to track what's happening in my friends' lives, but seeing how well others are getting on in life reminds me of the promises that i've made to myself and how i've not fulfilled some of them. something which my parents never fail to impress upon me all the time.

have you ever disliked youself for some things that you've done? i do feel this way sometimes, but i do my best to erase away the thought of hating myself. i mean, its pretty ridiculous to hate yourself. i can't say i love myself, but that's something to work towards. someone tell me what does it mean to love yourself. cos only when you love yourself then can you love others. I DON'T DESERVE YOU, i'm serious.

sailed through the pass office today. lucky man. thankfully the officers didn't stir up anything so i reached office safe and happy:) many people still on leave today, the entire HR department wasn't in... not that there's a lot of people in HR, in fact only 2, and soon to be 1 coming friday. there's only 3 people in for accounts today, 4 if you include the new guy peter who starts work today. pretty pathetic yeah? the miss neo is becoming more and more kaypoh nowadays. got thing no thing also come and flip through my stuff and open my mail. grrr. and today still open wrong letter some more, see lah, don't anyhow open other people's mail okay. next time i'm not gonna leave my mail lying in the open anymore.

anyways, got to know one more human today. don't know his designation, but his name is anthony from level 2. apparently, he's quite nice from the way he talks to others and how eileen ting ning they all respond to him. yayness, there's some extra life in office:)

had an extended lunch today, talking to ting ning and maureen about my life. i think i'm gonna miss them when they leave at the end of this month. sometimes talking to mature adults does open up your mind. i do enjoy listening to what they've got to offer about life's lessons, and pouring my heart out to them about my problems. thanks ting ning, i'm gonna give it a try.

this is a rather delayed post haha (this incident happened on last wed :p). anyways, here it goes:
yeah as you all know, i lost my pass. and on last wed morning, the FREAKING SECURITY OFFICER refused to let me exchange for a visitor's pass. the mere mention of this gets me hopping mad. freaking officer man. let me narrate the whole story so that you get a better idea.

ME: Can i exchange for a visitor's pass? (smiling)

FREAKING OFFICER: Why? Forget to bring pass ah?

ME: Erm... Ya... Actually i informed the pass office that i lost my pass 2 days ago. (still smiling)

FREAKING OFFICER: Oh ya. (turned around to retrieve a pass from the shelf but turned back abruptly) Eh, I thought i told you to lodge a police report yesterday?

ME: Yup, you reminded me yesterday, and i planned my time to go this afternoon after work, cos half day...

FREAKING OFFICER: Oei, i asked you to lodge yesterday. Why you never?

ME: But your colleague told me on monday that i can lodge a report anytime within 3 days of losing my pass. And today is the 3rd day, i plan to lodge the report after work.

FREAKING OFFICER: Oei, i asked you to lodge by yesterday and you tell me you got no time to go. What reason is that? Police station open 24 hours you know? You tell me you got no time?

ME: I didn't say i have no time. I said I planned my time to go this afternoon. It's still within the 3 days limit. And though you reminded me yesterday, you didn't tell me that i die die must have it by today or else i wouldn't be let in. (freaking officer then beckoned her freaking boss over)

FREAKING BOSS: Hey why you liddat? We told you to make report by yesterday and you never. Actually ah, we can refuse to let you enter on the first day you lost the pass you know. How can you tell me you got no time? Now is not that we don't want to issue you a pass okay, but your reason is not good lah, how can you tell me you got no time?

ME: (takes deep breaths) I DID NOT SAY I HAVE NO TIME!!!!!! anyway, one of your staff told me that i could lodge the report within 3 days on monday!

FREAKING BOSS: NO. Tell me lah, who told you that? Which one of my staff? Point out to me lah!

ME: (gives up)

as a matter of fact, her staff, the one who informed me about the 3 days limit was just at the counter beside mine. and she sat there quietly not speaking a single word. like what the hell. whatever man, but i did something nice by not pointing her out to the freaking boss.

Luckily Adelene came in time else i wouldn't know what to do. I mean the way those checkpoint people reacted really left me feeling so helpless and almost close to tears. And i really pei4 fu2 the way she handled this situation. She explained to them very nicely that she was present on monday too and could witness that the officer really said 'within 3 days', not that she's siding me on purpose. but apparently the FREAKING OFFICERS suffered from selective hearing impairment and insisted on having their way. so Adelene had to apologise to them on my behalf though we did not do anything wrong before they agreed to issue me the pass. i mean, they weren't satisfied with a simple sorry. adelene had to 'sorry' them so many times you know. she really had to HUMBLE herself. like what the hell.

i feel so indignant every time i think about it. why did adelene have to humble herself to apologise when we did not do anything wrong? and she had to apologise quite a number of times before the pass was issued. So what if you're the checkpoint office and you call the shots there? Being offered the privilege of having the authority to make final decisions doesn't mean you get to abuse it every now and then. As a security officer, your job is to ensure the safety of civilians going in and out of Jurong Island and not to misuse your given authority to show the whole wide world that you're the boss. so what if you're the boss? SO WHAT? for goodness sake, please take note of your attitude and tone when you speak to others. cos not everyone will be as stupid as me to let you trample all over and not everyone will be as nice as adelene to let you have your way. does it give you a kick to make things difficult for others? does it make you feel better if you get to lord over others? seriously, i think you're somewhat lacking in interpersonal skills. perhaps if you work on it, you might have been more successful than what you are right now. perhaps thats the reason why you're only a lowly security officer. not that i look down on security officers (in fact i like the auntie at the departure office who's always so nice and friendly), but you really suck at your job. but whatever, i'm not going to hold it against you or what.

i really pray that one day you'll change your attitude.

by God's grace, i forgive you. (though its pretty hard to)

something's not right these days. i eat a lot and yet i'm still hungry. like how i just gobbled a box of teriyaki chicken rice plus a piece of papaya - and i still want more. sounds so greedy haha. i did bring food to office today - the problem is that i didn't bring enough. finished an energy bar and a pack of meji crackers in the morning - so i'm left with only another energy bar. does anyone have a spare minibar? how i wish i could install one at my desk, this way i wouldn't hafta walk to the pantry haha. and i could stock up on ice cream and yoghurt and ice cold coke. speaking about coke, that is one thing severely lacking in my everyday diet. anyone who has no idea of what to give me for my birthday can consider delivering a carton of it to my house:)

anyways, F&N should consider installing their drinks machines on jurong island. imagine the number of foreign labour as well as staff like me going in and out all day long, they would surely stand to make a profit. on top of that, the consumer satisfaction derived from a can of ice-cold coke would also be a bonus. well, actually i just want coke.

somebody please send me a can of coke... please...

its now four and a half hours till knock-off. counting down:)

wells this morning i had to queue at the checkpoint AGAIN. i wonder if the checkpoint officers ever learnt to smile - especially to pathetic creatures like me who's worried sick about losing the pass. or at the very least, they should avoid adding oil to the flames by incessantly repeating that i have to make a police report. yes yes yes, i know i have to make a report within 3 days blah blah blah. oh please, i'm already aware of it for goodness sake.

anyways, guess what happened this morning? the lift just had to break down. i'm sorry, not lift, but ALL THE LIFTS. like wth. had to take the stairs down instead. wells, 13 floors isn't really a problem, but not when i'm rushing for the company bus. but anyways, thats pretty much the only 'not so good' thing that happened to me this morning. hopefully thats the end. push forward some CNY luck to me yeah?

got a call from dhika last night. actually it was 3 missed calls hehs... well both him and shihui doing the PA company thing at suntec, which unfortunately is a whole day affair - meaning they might miss the PA reunion. ok, so thats sort of like a quarter of the fun gone. anyways, so the task of organising the reunion now falls on me. hmm, gonna polish my rusty CCO skills haha.

tentatively its gonna be at suntec marche - hey juniors listen up, seniors aren't treating unlike last time haha. this sat 9th feb 12.30pm at marche. choice of restaurant subjected to change. expecting about 15-20 people, a rather conservative estimate though. there'll be 4 batches of PA past present future:) samuel batch, kayhow batch, my batch plus kaizhong batch.. of cos not forgetting the IPs:) hopefully a few from each batch can make it, i mean no harm spending a little of your angbao money rite?

okie, lunch time now. another post after lunch:) anyways, i realised that though its titled my job, it isn't really about my job haha. wells, i'm rushing to go lunch!

almost knock-off time. sick of calling the comfort lost and found hotline cos you get the same reply over and over again - the item has not been found, please call again later. to repeat, press 1. to speak to our customer service officer, press 2. to end this call, press 3. like who will bother to press 3. just hang up. i guess no point mulling over it. at the most just report to HR and get them to apply for another pass. otherwise apply for a visitor's pass permanently myself since i have access to the system, and this is perfectly legal i think. i mean, if i do it myself, i get it for free. if i get HR to do it, i pay 20 bucks replacement fee. FYI, i just received my 10 bucks petty cash this afternoon for my lost pass.

anyways, fion gave me 5 pineapple tarts today:) haha. it came at the right time cos i forgot to bring snacks today. and basically the whole afternoon was spent preparing a job scope list for HR, quite tiring... and emailing shihua in between haha... my microsoft outlook inbox is rather flooded with her replies:) a little slack today compared to other days, cos everyone's on leave. and i do enjoy having a little time to myself:) anyways, time to pack up, lock up and go home. time to forget about losing my pass and office keys. time to go home and stone and watch tv.

tmr can't be worse than today rite? yeah. at least everything is over. at least there's a solution to my problems. thank GOD:) anyways, i've checked out new creation church's service timings. anyone interested?:)

today's monday, first day of the week... no monday blues, but loads of trouble haha. first thing in the morning, i woke up at 7.45am for goodness sake. rushed like mad though i know i'm not going to be able to catch the company bus and will hafta take a cab. well i managed to hop on a cab despite it being the morning peak hours, so.... phew... but the uncle was reluctant to drive me into jurong island, actually he DID NOT want to. fine, so i got him to drop me at the checkpoint and guess what, the company bus is still there! so i faster cheong to the entry while rummaging through my bag for my security pass. and what the hell. i left it in the freaking cab. meaning i cannot get through the checkpoint - meaning, i missed the bus AGAIN.

but anyways, the issue at hand is that i LOST my pass, which was bundled together with the office keys, which opens the drawer that keeps my internal pass. sometimes, some things like to come all at once. which is fine by me, better than one bad thing a day. so, being a good reception/ HR/ admin personnel, i rmb the comfort hotline offhand, 6552 1111... and i was directed to 6552 4525, which is the lost & found. but i had to wait 5 mins before the line got through. apparently, singaporeans do lose a lot of stuff in cabs.. i feel so dead man.

luckily i met my colleague adelene at the checkpoint, haha she forgot to bring her pass so both of us applied for a visitor's pass. so ma2 fan2 lor. after work still must return there to return it in exchange for our i/cs... how bad can this get.

and when we reached office, we realised we're locked out cos we have no pass. the only way to get in is to call the boss and get her to open the door for us - which is something that the both of us don't really dare to do... but luckily, Ganesan happened to pass by the door and so he opened it for us. LUCKY haha.

like i said, some things like to come all at once. the water dispenser just had to disfunction TODAY. the internet was down last friday, today is the dispenser's turn, i wonder what will be next tmr. anyways, whose problem is it? MINE. and the dispenser person said everyone will be on leave till after CNY. thank you very much. and then there's a change of security guard today, and he doesn't know that he has to bring in the newspapers in the morning... luckily today i don't hafta scan the currency section.

anyways, my pass and keys are still not found. how can the driver not notice it? even if he didn't, his passengers would surely notice it rite? judging from my conversation with him this morn, most prob he'd find returning the pass and keys too troublesome and just dispose of them discreetly. sian. i can't believe it. why why why did so many things happen today. hopefully this is the end. and that some good soul will return me my pass soon.

anyways, more on sat's outing later. for now, let me go send an email to comfort customer svc. wish me luck:)

hmm. into the fourth day of my new job. wells, more or less settled down already. and decided to face up to it and give it my best rather than expending energy contemplating if i should just quit. there's no point running away from it. everything happens for a reason, and what doesn't kill me only makes me stronger:)
anyways, today is sophie's last day - meaning i'm on my own from now on. thanks so much sophie for guiding me so patiently, all the best in your new job k:) wells, elaine managed to handle the front office cum HR cum admin stuff cum postage cum delivery stuff all by herself this afternoon. haha not bad:) i'm gonna be better tmr. hee, made some errors today, wasn't supposed to check tax invoices, but i mixed them up with DHL airway bills and so i signed on them. bleah, hope nothing goes wrong otherwise i'm gonna be DEAD haha. and ting ning told sophie to courier some impt doc to some law firm, but she was in a hurry yesterday and sophie just left it in a drawer... and all of us forgot about it. luckily i chanced upon it when i was doing some packing up. but still its too late, supposed to reach the other party by 5pm, i only found it at 4.43pm. hmm, again, hopefully the law firm will be too busy to notice.
so overall, today's quite okay, cos i managed to find stuff to make myself busy enough such that HR cannot ask me to do stuff for them. haha... if i get pulled into HR, god knows when will they let me knock off... and they gave me 4 mandarin oranges when suppliers came to deliver haha. more to come tmr when more deliveries arrive:) and i stupidly left my half eaten kinder bueno lying around when i was occupied with some stuff... and after that, i forgot where i left it. tsk tsk. but found it in the end lah haha.
hee, anyways, we're finally gonna meet up on saturday! sumin yuquan jen shihua ade and me! too bad XX couldn't make it. quite a successful gathering cum reunion lunch, and at bugis AGAIN haha. we had our xmas exchange at bugis too haha. seems like if we want everyone to come, we just hafta meet at bugis:)
and how how how? still haven't bought CNY clothes. haha, i still rmb going out with nina cass dhika chak last year to shop for CNY clothes.. those were the days haha. actually i saw i REALLY NICE dress thats blue and cheery and well, its just OH MY GOD... pretty haha... but its size L which is too big and its the only piece they have. i'm going to call up their other outlets to get them to make reservations if they have it. haha, i must have it:)
wells, i know i'm VERY incoherent in this post haha. brain not working. but you all understand rite:P haha, anyways, shihua, i've got the dates for the kayaking one star liao, tell you on sat then we decide tgt k? and suddenly i feel so happy cos i'm getting to the end of my post:)
wells to end off: i can't wait to meet all of you on sat! and the PA reunion on 3rd day of CNY! and of cos i'm gonna plan a dinner date with PEEL, its been so long since the 4 of us sat down and had a really good talk. haha, even though once we start, we can't stop! i love you all! despite risking sounding like a bimbo, i'm still gonna go on haha.. and i can't wait to visit mama jess's house and meeting everyone again:)
tmr's a brand new day. i'm gonna do my job well. no more complaining. and smile!:) jiayou everyone in whatever you're gonna do!
and jen! today's first day at new office rite? all the best!:) haha, can't wait to meet you all. tata!:)

regards,
elaine:)
Front office/ Admin/ HR
Continental BioEnergy
2 Seraya Place
Jurong Island
reception@continentalcorp.ws
(online during working hours haha, this is what's on my company mail)

goodnites everyone!:)

i'm really really sad about my previous assignment ending. like REALLY REALLY sad. especially after starting my new job in Continental BioEnergy something something Pte Ltd... its like what the hell. i really miss the nice people over at CNI, clement, jess, farezah, ann, ayu... i wonder how have they been the past few days.. most prob great. they've really made my brief stay in CNI a really HAPPY and memorable one, i love them all:) shall upload pics about my last day at CNI plus the NBS annual dinner which we went to together when i'm feeling better. anyways, don't worry, i'm not sick. as in physically sick. i'm just disappointed in my new job. you know how bad it is if i hafta drag myself there every morning.... its not about the distance you know (ps: its in jurong island by the way). if clement says his job is one for a dead fish, mine is even worse man. can you imagine it, i've no idea how to describe it. why not just lock me up in a mental hospital.

hee. i'm at work now. but no one's around, except ann and i:) hmm, sounds like anna & the king, if only i'm really the king.
wells anyways, a glimpse at my blog a moment ago reckons its time to... guess what?
change blogskin!:) haha its about time to hide the procrastinator in me, and dig out the html expert wannabe. hmm... or perhaps i'll leave that till later.
ooh, and i tried out something new yesterday! a super high tech camera, like those used by professional photographers. damn cool. the flash is good, and the shutter is fast. great for capturing candid shots without allowing others enough time to react haha. if only the normal digicams work as well as it does.
anyways, i'm red all over my neck... most prob due to the wine mixing yesterday night.
red wine + white wine + beer + swirling them all in a wine glass = elaine feels weird all day.
shan't go into the details haha.
anyways, i'm signing up for kayaking one star:) anyone wants? then can register together as a class:)

yup, as the title goes. i'm really cold and hungry. where's my lunch i wonder. probably not for another hour or so. cos jess is still on her comp clearing stuff. sighs. i shouldn't have left my bag at NEC... well, at least my bag contains food and a jacket. how was i supposed to know that jess will stay so long in the program office... anyways, i know i sound rather incoherent, but you get the point that i'm too shagged to do anything properly now...

woke up rather early this morning cos clement picking me up before going
NEC. in the end, the funny thing was that he actually overslept haha. haha, it's rather amusing cos i thought the only one who can't get out of bed is - ME... so we reached NEC at 7am instead of 6.30 haha. jess was already there, and there was some commotion regarding the laptop which went missing haha. turned out some uncle kept it locked up in a room cos he thought no one was looking after it.

wells. instead of staying in NEC, i volunteered to accompany jess back to the office to get some work done. turned out to be the mistake of the day which got me into this state. bleah.

today's the 1st day of PDP. i think we've made a good start, given the tremendous amount of time and effort that jess has put in, of course not forgetting the rest of the program office staff - including ME!:) hahas.

anyways, i set my alarm for 4.45 am but ended up waking up at 5.30 instead - meaning, i can't go for my morning jog otherwise i'd be late for work which starts at 7.00. but in the end, i still had to cab to office cos my bro & sis hogged the toilet and i could only take my shower after they're done with it. whatever. i shall wake up earlier tmr:)

wells, regarding the cab ride. i assumed that i'm the taxi driver's first passenger of the day. so i didn't indicate that all i have on me is a 50 bucks note. when i asked him if he has enough change for 50 bucks halfway through the ride, he was nice enough not to reprimand me. wells, at least he has more manners than the other cab driver who scolded me so damn rudely cos i didn't inform him that i only have a 50 bucks note. and somemore that was on the 2nd day of A levels, on my GP paper. i should have remembered that driver's car plate number. but whatever. anyways, halfway through the ride, i called jen to see if she has reached and she said she has alighted at the wrong bus stop cos it was too dark in the early morning to see anything. so in the end, i cabbed to pick up jen and we headed off to NEC together:) think we reached just on time, at 7am. haha:) luckily we did.

when the both of us reached there, the permanent staff were already there and almost everything seemed to be ready. the dean was already there, and i think she somehow thought that we arrived late. cos the permanent staff were supposed to reach at 6.30, temp staff (meaning jen and i) to reach at 7.. but wells, its not that important. so jess gave us a brief summary of what to do, which was pretty chicken feed - manning the registration booth, stuff like taking attendance and passing tshirts and course materials to the participants:) i think we did an okay job. but it could be better if i greeted the people louder and more cheerfully hahas:) and hopefully i can remember to tell jen the name and tshirt size of the participants, cos i keep forgetting to do it despite writing notes on my palm.

anyways, breakfast lunch dinner plus 2 refreshments breaks provided, what more can i ask for?:) though it was quite boring after registration time has ended cos we basically have nothing to do, we entertained ourselves adequately haha. there was some serious work to do in the afternoon, and when we were almost done, jen and i started to get high haha. actually, to be more accurate, jen was very high. she kept laughing at the things we said though i didn't think they were that funny haha. but anyways, jen left when we were done with the second run stuff. so clement and i went around taking pictures for the professor. don't really know what he's going to do with the pictures though, but anyways, clement showed me where the track is:) maybe i'm going to run there instead of going to the stadium though i suspect the stadium's shower stalls are probably way cleaner haha.

and after that i did some invoicing and then dinner! i enjoyed dinner more than lunch or breakfast, probably cos the food is much tastier haha. especially the tempura! yummy:) but there were only 2 left, and me being nice, took only 1. ooh, and i tried red wine and white wine too! wells, its not bad, but i still prefer vodka haha. perhaps i might grow to like it if someone could teach me how to differentiate between wines as well as how to appreciate it. cos i basically gulped them down as if they are plain water.

anyways, while we were having dinner upstairs, there was some function held by orient express and they had a buffet like 1.5 times more impressive than us. but what i liked most is that they hired a strings band to perform... omg, i love their music. jess said it was rather romantic, hmm, and i agree:) they have an acoustic guitar, a cello and a violin. the guitar and violin were connected to the amps and speakers, so yeah, we could hear it from the 4 floor. too bad the cello wasn't connected, cos it was severely overpowered by the other 2 instruments. but overall, the music they played was rather heavenly:) i loved it. how i wish i could listen to it every night till i fall asleep:)

haha, anyways, backtrack abit. met up with the PA guys plus shihui on sat to send chakyan off at changi airport (yes, again) before heading to marnia square. shihui left halfway for basketball, and the guys went to play pool. and this girl went on a shopping spree to get a new dress, wallet, shoes as well as a long awaited meal at xin wang hong kong cafe:) dhika arrived while the others were still playing pool, so we went xin wang first. haha, we went a bit crazy at the menu - 1 century egg congee, 3 baskets of dim sum, 4 half-boiled eggs, 1 yuan yang and a cuppa coke:) haha, don't worry, i didn't finish them all by myself. we both shared. wells, we managed to finish everything but ended up feeling SO full. but it was well worth it, cos it was breakfast, lunch and dinner for the both of us:)

cass came at around 7 plus, almost 8pm to get her krispy kreme donuts that she got dhika to get back from indonesia haha. and we went home after that. but i enjoyed the day though i was quite zi bi from the airport till marina square, sorry people. it was nice getting to meet everyone and seeing how everyone has changed:)

anyways, back to PDP. today was quite a success, and hopefully this will continue for the next 2 weeks till the end of the programme:) which will also mark the end of my assignment at NTU. hmm, well, i've been there for exactly a month now. and now that i'm starting to get used to everything, the places, the people... i'd have to leave soon. sighs. damn it kelly services. i'm starting to love my job and almost everything related to it. no point worrying too much now, hopefully everything turns out fine in the end.

anyways, ending off now. my face is still damn red from the glasses of wine i took just now. and i smell of liquor haha. wells, looking forward to tomorrow. tata people!:)

hmm.
PS: anyone wants to contribute to my nintendo ds lite? i so very much want it:) i'm going to get it soon!

hmm. for no good reason, i was being rather emo for the first few days of the new year. i guess there's no point making myself upset over things that i've no control over. some things take 2 hands to clap. if i've done all that i could, the rest is not up to me anymore. i don't think the situation will ever change, cos if it could, it wouldn't have dragged on till now. some people just don't listen to reason. some people are just so deluded. they have absolutely no idea how their actions could make life hell for others. sometimes it gets me so exasperated that i don't know what else i can do. and i hate this feeling. sometimes all i can do is just to run away from it. cos facing up does not help. i wonder how long all these will last. but come what may. i'll do my best to face it all. till one day when i can just walk away from it all. so, this marks the end of me being emo. i must remember this everytime the emo feeling comes. cos i'm not going to allow myself to feel bad for things that are out of my control:)

so, the first step to a good year is to start making plans. which i've already done so. i've been rather successful in keeping up with my plans so far, hopefully i can continue to do so throughout the year.

and i desperately need stuff to entertain myself. i've already found someone to learn hip hop with me:) anyone wants to pick up french or learn to ride a motorbike?

sad to say, i've never lived the way i wanted except for a brief period of my life. i wished i could turn back time, back to the days where i could just be myself, back to the someone who could take charge of her own life. and this is what i want of myself -

hmm. xmas shopping almost done. but then you don't need a reason if you just wanna go out rite. yeah, its public holiday today.. and i stayed at home the entire day. hard to believe, but true. my plans to go bugis was sort of dashed when my aunt decided to make an impromptu visit haha. boring. eh, i'm not referring to my aunt. i mean not being able to go out.

and me being me, basically stuck my butt to the sofa and glued my eyes to the black box though there's nothing worth mentioning to watch on mediacorp. i could have packed my room, send xmas cards, gone down to exercise blah blah blah...

but i didn't. there's always a but to everything. i could have made my day more meaningful BUT i didn't.

wells, regrets often arise because you could have done something BUT you didn't. sometimes, all you need to do is just to get your butt up and do something.

sometimes, when something goes wrong, its everybody else's fault except yours.
sometimes, when something goes wrong, its actually everybody's fault. as in, everyone has a part to play.

i wonder why do people search for someone or something to place the blame on when things do not go their way. some problems happen not because anyone wants it on purpose. they just happen, probably because no one does anything about it. in such cases, i guess no single person is more at fault then any other involved. omg, i'm gg around in round circles. anyways this thing i'm talking about, i don't think we'll ever get any form of closure. its pathetic.

and sometimes when you think you are right, have you ever considered the possibility that you're not? sometimes, when you're so damn sure that you're right, i urge you to think again.

cos, when you think you're right when actually you aren't, and carry out actions to justify that you're right (when you seriously aren't), then you'd look really silly to the whole wide world. as in, really silly.

and sometimes, people should really learn to act more graciously and treat others with respect.
do what is enough to get your point across, there is no need to infuse sarcasm. there is no need to phrase your words such as to make others feel at fault, even if they really are.

sometimes, i get so amused when people think that they are mature when their actions prove otherwise. there's a difference between being truly mature and acting mature. now, this is really really pathetic.

now, i'm wondering what am i doing in front of the moniter when i should stick my butt back to the sofa and glue my eyes to the tv. back to watching the youxi show.

sighs, back to work tmr. tata.

hmm. why the title? cos my life is quite in a mess. not very serious, but serious enough.

i seriously need to reorganise my finances, come up with a savings/expenditure plan and make sure i stick to it. i've gotta do some packing that i've been putting off for so long. like my a levels stuff haha. i need to become more proactive, like seriously. and i mean it.

it seems i'm spending more than i earn for the past few days. hmm, actually the past few weeks. and this is gonna stop. sighs. i need a financial plan fast before my money goes into the pockets of shopping mall shopowners.

wells. actually it all boils down to myself. yeah, me, myself and i. jiayou elaine:)

rahh rahh. i'm so deaded. whats worse than doing the certificates is the distribution lists. never ending crap that makes you copy and paste like millions of times. There are 9 programmes, and i've only done 2 from 8.45am till now. omg, god knows when i'm going to complete it. 1 more hour till lunch, but i'm already cold and hungry! genie genie make some food appear NOW. omg omg omg... save me... actually rite, why do i have to make distribution lists??? don't those directors and CEOs exchange namecards all the time? why would they need a distribution list? i guess my hard work would most prob end up in their rubbish bins. so s'il vous plait.... can i not do it? is there some sort of temp staff union around? for the work i do, i probably deserve higher pay.

yays! i'm finally done with the certificates! well, should be considered done i guess.... other than the signature part, jess hasn't told me if it should be lecturer or professor... and thats because judy hasn't told her which one haha. but anyways, it just means that i'm quite free now:) i even did some extra work haha, like sorting the bag tags into the different courses... 2 and a half more hours till after working hours. i shall go learn some french phrases now. i'm going to master french, then italian, then perhaps jap? or maybe should learn latin just for the beauty of it, though not many people in the world use it. well anyways, jiayou elaine!

oh wells. i just finished what i didn't complete on friday. phew NOT.

Jess came over and said that the font was too small. and that the lines for the dean and professor to sign on is not long enough and... the line should NOT be centralised. like wth. after i've completed everything. and now i have to reopen and edit 79 documents. omg, faints. think this will occupy my entire afternoon lah. bleah. and after work still hafta go down to cpf building somemore. but nvm, shan't complain. at least i'm not asked to run a marathon or something. that i'd surely die.

anyways, went shopping on sat, but not with jen haha. walk around the entire afternoon but didn't manage to get a single thing. quite a waste of time. and i'm never going to go shopping with my mum and sis anymore. not that they can't shop or anything, but my mum sort of has something to say about each piece of clothing i wanna buy. and my sis was pulling a long black face the entire afternoon for god knows what reason. so thats it, i'm not going to shop with them anymore.

well life's pretty normal nowadays, but rather routined. hopefully when this assignment ends i'm going to get another one thats more interesting and varied. anyways, i'm quite looking forward to the PA chalet on the 23rd at sentosa:) long time since i have something to look forward to, other than lunchtime, leaving the office after work and bedtime. there's christmas present exchange, something which i really like alot haha. and that reminds me that i still haven't done any christmas shopping yet:)

maybe i'd do it this weekend, if it doesn't rain in town. and i think i might need either a chauffeur and a bunch of people to help me carry stuff. anyone wants to volunteer? cos need to get toys for the 10 cousins.. plus gifts for the even bigger number of aunties uncles blah blah blah... this year's celebration will be at my gugu's house as usual, and i can't wait for the gift exchange... though the aunties normally get me stuff that i don't need but its still fun unwrapping presents lah. actually this year's party was supposed to be at my place, but then for dunno what reason my dad doesn't want... so... sighs... maybe next year?

anyways, i'm bored. waiting for the dean to reply and tell me what to put on the certificates which will most probably take me ages before everything's done. hopefully she replies asap so i might have some chance of completing it before i leave the office at 5.30pm. 2h to lunchtime. i'm counting down haha.

hmm, finally got the time to blog. was quite busy this morning, haven't even completed what i was supposed to do by lunchtime.. but i went for lunch first anyway. Had macs AGAIN, mcspicy evm... damn hot, the coke wasn't enough and jen gave me hers haha. jess took half day leave, so we're supposedly free for the afternoon.. note the word SUPPOSEDLY.

well, i had to make certificates for seventy over participants. omg, its hell. wasn't even done by 5pm. so i left it till monday. well whatever.

hmm. can't believe i'm back to blogging again. actually din really want to, but i can't find anything better to do. and FYI, i'm in office now, supposedly working haha. 15 mins to lunchtime, and i guess blogging could somehow provide ample entertainment before i cheong to the canteen..

hmm anyways, its nice to be talking to myself again.. cos for me, blogging is like thinking aloud.. only that its appearing on the com screen.. wells.. the good thing about not updating your blog for ages is that people don't read your blog anymore.. and you can rant all you want without people talking about it for some time at least..

oh, jen's here to get me for lunch. oops, wrong. jen's here to ask me out for lunch haha. okaes, so save draft first.

okaes, back from lunch already. had macs takeaway, too bad no delivery.. we had to walk damn far to the place lah. but anyways, we went back to have lunch at the conference room together with the rest. well, as usual, nothing much to say, but i think its quite fun just listening to what the rest are chatting haha.. from mother talk to durian puffs..

hmm, now i'm wondering what would jess ask me to do next. basically i don't think i've accomplished anything substantial from morning till now haha. and they are paying me you know.. oh wells, whatever.

all i've done is to key in invoices, make mailing labels, make copies of some excel files... and then facebook facebook and facebook. then i asked jess for something to do. and guess what, i was asked to check through the names on the mailing labels that i've made cos those CEOs and what have you are VERY particular about their names. and i hate doing that. shouldn't have asked for trouble. but then can't blame her cos there's really nothing else in the office for me to do.

maybe i shouldn't rush through my assignments so fast rite? but then it feels so dreadful when you purposely take your own sweet time to finish stuff. i'd rather finish them asap haha. and then use the free time to surf the net. well, shan't complain anymore. this is definitely much better than working as some sales promoter in metro. at least the boss is nice:)

hmm, i shall talk about facebook! not that i'm addicted to it or what lah.. but it really helps to pass time.. though it gets really boring if you check it once every 15 mins like i do.. somebody intro me some nice stuff to do? any nice websites or anything? too bad my workstation doesn't have speakers, cannot listen to music or watch dramas.. hmm... jess sits beside me.. haha and she's busily typing away now... anyways, i guess the permanent staff are quite stressed at the moment.. with so many courses coming up.. and those participants are from all around the world.. and this adds to the difficulty in collecting payments and registering particulars and all that.. luckily its not my job.. i'm only a temp staff! maybe next time i'd be like them when i start my first job.. so shan't gloat too much now.

hmm.. think i'm going SHOPPING with jen this saturday... i can't wait.. i'm really looking forward to it. i'm finally going to be able to get the stuff that i want haha. but still cannot overspend lah. i still have a S$200 debt to clear haha.

rahh... i'm like so bored. jen is in the conference room typing name tags... she has been on it from morning till now. poor thing. got seventy over names... and they are super duper unfamiliar names... you know how hard it is to type thai names... like litijakanakorn nittaya or something... bleah. hope she finishes soon then can rest. but her laptop got no internet... at the most can only play minesweeper.. well hope the new laptops come soon.. then i'd be able to leave the workstation and move into the conference room with jen:)

anyways, i think my easy days are soon to be over.. when the professors send their coursework over, we'll be admin assistants cum photocopying ladies. photocopying is not that fun when you have to duplicate hundreds over sets. bleah. and thats not all. we still have to put them into those huge rings files which i've spent more than 2 hours labelling them yesterday. well, shan't think too much about it... just wait till it comes...

ooh. another thing is that the boss isn't really keen on letting us work OT. think got some budget or what. well, whatever.

hope it doesn't rain later.. if not like yesterday liddat, trapped in the building, cannot go out. anyways, 2 more hours till i leave work haha.

shall go home and think of something with depth to write about tmr rather than the mindless chatter above haha. hmm, and blogging can really take up quite some time.... okay, back to work. shall ask jess for more stuff to do now:)


tata! till tmr!:)

hey all! i got my number back... but i've lost all your contacts... so msg me and gimme your numbers!!! especially the PA pple hor.. must faster gimme ur numbers so i can msg you all on events k:) anyways, got event coming up, gradnite on 20th and 30th Nov from 8plus to 2pm and the actual is 3rd Dec from 5pm to 11.30pm at swissotel.... the 1st 2 rehearsals will be in school at lt1.. anybody wanna do this event? we desperately need PA pple!!! so if you're free and wanna do, faster msg me k? but anyways, i'll be sending this msg to the cca soon... juz letting you all know early... and rite, those gg for PA camp on 4th 5th 5th Dec msg me to confirm that u're gg... and state ur food preference - vege or anything else... and pls pls pls go dl the consent form from KM, and get it signed asap... can return us on some PA outing we're planning to hold soon and will tell u all when we've decided on it... everyone pls come to PA camp cuz its really gg to be really blasting.. dun go will regret... i'm serious... this camp is gg to be really great!:) anyways, dats abt it lah.. haha.. and i'm wondering why am i posting this on my blog instead of the PA blog... haha.. wadeva, i'm to lazy to cut and paste and post this on the PA blog haha:)

and ESTHER is coming back!!! haha, am i that excited? actually quite lah... haha... hey you come back until when ah? i think PEEL will be able to meet up more often next year now that PL is working and you will also be working rite? yippee... and i book you all for xmas first k? always want to celebrate tgt but cannot... this year should be can liao rite? haha.. can't wait for you to come back so i can see how much crappier you've become... haha... but i can only play badminton wif you cuz my blades cracked and i dun think i'm gg to replace the wheels AGAIN.. haha... it cracked not because i'm too heavy k.. haha... faster tell me your flight number and everything k! faster come back!!!:))

haha, and christmas is coming!! and i'm like super looking forward to the gift exchange! lalala... dun tell you who i chose... and i'm wondering who picked me? haha... haha i think it will be very funny if yuquan picked me... dunno why leh.. but just very funny.. but then again, almost everything abt yuquan is funny, the big head and big ears (so cute rite?) haha.... i love xmas!!! so when are we meeting ah? and we haven gone to KBOX yet leh... haha... like very busy hor... and JENNIFER!!! you still haven go pulau ubin with me!!!! tsk tsk...

finally i finish watching that taiwan drama.. oh wells, its not that nice... but its ok lah... haha, i finished watching it... though i took very long.. haha... and i wonder how's shihui jialin and shihua doing at yltc... haha, hope they are enjoying themselves... too bad i missed it, only pay 50 bucks for this 5 day 4 night slimming programme leh... super bargain.. tsk tsk... and oh no, why am i becoming like sumin... tsk tsk....

rahh! and i haven go and find the PA pple's hp numbers... how to send the requests? later then go find lah... okay okay, now go and find lah.. if not wait until at night also haven find finish.... so cya all around:)

hey pples.. i lost my phone... so dun need call or msg me cuz the line's alr terminated.. and i dun tink i'll get a new phone cuz my dad's like damn angry... so should be i wait until next year den get a phone myself... what a way to spend my next year's hongbao money... bleah... but at least better than this year... i spent it on the stupid GC... anyways.. super tired from the open day rehearsal... and think i'm only going to plan abt friday's rehearsal tonight.. headache cuz not enough manpower but we'll make do with it... and i'm not going to think abt my results and their outcome.... dunno why, i've been in this super sian mood since the start of the week.. i really dunno why.. but come to think of it, my energy and enthu-ness had alr fallen by half when i came into NJ.. and it had fallen by half again this year... nothing's really interesting nowadays... and isit cuz i haven been looking for stuff to do? oh my goodness... i think i'm really dying from lack of stimulation if i dun find something interesting to engage myself in... rraahhh... but wads there to do if i can't get out fo the freaking house, can't use the comp, can't watch TV, can't get any food out of the cupboard.... sighs...

sighs. i dun like to be down with fevers and pounding headaches. and i haven finish studying for the chem lec test tmr. that reminds me that i still haf to complete the physics class server quiz cuz today's the deadline. hmm, if i can't finish studying for the chem lec test... most prob i wun be coming to sch. or maybe come after lecture. hahas. oh, and i can dun go for PE tmr... haha, just as well cuz my PE tshirt is not dry yet:) i din go see the doctor, self remedy wif panadols haha, so dun haf MC, dunno whether the PE dept accept parent's letter anot cuz i alr used 2 times le. sighs, i feel so braindead today... haf to go study the chem test now. bye:)

this week is a busy week for PA cuz got 4 events just on wednesday alone. national day, archery comp, NE dialogue and poetry music night. rahh.
and some even require bi-amp setups which is like so tedious.
and the worse is some events CLASH.
rahh. madness lah.
i spent so much time on like selecting the people and thanks to the rest of the exco for helping me with it kaes? especially ivan who lent me his phone to send the msgs cuz my msg limit over liao:) thanks lots!
really loads of thanks to the exco for helping me so much:) without you all, i surely wouldn't have finished it all so fast. luv ya all:)
lets continue to jiayou and make the best practice presentation a great and memorable one kaes!

PA rawks my life/- way to go PA:)

yeah. weird title i know. but its really abt something that i've wanted to talk abt for ages but couldn't be bothered to.
hey i dun hate you - but i really dun understand the way you go abt doing certain things. you're practically deluded and living in your own world where you're always right and everybody else is not-as-right. you claim that you see things from others' perspectives but in reality you're NOT. you just 'THINK' you are. i dun understand.
seriously, how many pple will truely say that they like you as a friend? can you list more than 5? and i'm being optimistic here. sometimes the things you say are like so - i just feel like bashing you up and smashing your face and i dun feel like stopping. i just feel like bashing you up so that i'll never hear that freaking voice of yours ever again. sometimes i just get the feeling that you're doing all these to get some attention. it appears that your actions are just of a person with a deluded personality and an inferior complex. and you're always trying to justify your actions, even when they are not right. hey, sometimes you should stop making excuses for yourselves and try admitting your mistakes? is it that hard to admit that you're wrong? even if you dun wanna do that, its perfectly fine, but pls SHUT UP at the very least and dun start ranting abt how others make your life so 'miserable'. hey wake up. your life is just fine, its you yourself that keep bringing out your inner critic and criticising every single thing other than yourself when you ought to SHUT UP. dun you realise that when others make a mistake that affects you either directly or indirectly, you ALWAYS blame it on their character or something? its always others who are lazy and irresponsible and everything. and when you make a mistake, its always due to the circumstances or because of something or someone else. its never your fault. its always somebody else's fault. please stop it. you're always doing it till we are all so fed up. i'm totally fed up and sick of it. dun always expect other people to change can? YOU are the person who needs to change. and stop thinking that you're like all so saintly and that what you 'think' is right. i guess its hard to accept this fact but somehow you should change. but most prob you wouldn't know that i'm talking abt you. but even if you know i'm talking abt you, given your present mentality, forget it. you'll never take in a word cuz you always believe that you're right wad. sometimes you just need to either change or SHUT UP. YOU ARE SUCH A NEGATIVE PERSON THAT I JUST FEEL SO SORRY FOR YOU CAN?

yeah rite. i'm always feeling sleepy nowadays. someone tell me why please. and when i'm sleepy i got that stoney look on my face and pple start asking me why i'm so quiet today or if i'm alrite. i think maybe its because the school duzzen provide enough food for me. as in, everyday eat noodles and chee cheong fun and prata plus peach tea w/ pearls, i'm getting bored. and the school so 'giam', only allocating a pathetic 1h10mins everyday for us to eat - where got enough?! somemore dun let us eat in class, no wonder i'm always so sleepy. maybe that could account for my blurness - not enough food leads to not enough brain stimulation and results in me leaving my bottles and wallet and files lying around. i've lost 2 adidas bottles so now i'm using plastic bottles instead just in case my brain decides to conveniently forget to remind me to take my bottle again. actually i like plastic bottles, cuz can change designs every now and then - but i'm like always drinking coke, so i've got loads of coke bottles haha:)

anyways, i'm wondering why am i talking so much crap today. maybe its because today got over-exposure to a toxic organism named mr chew - who loves to speak monotone and can be easily identified by the following striking characteristics: a pathetic goatee that looks like a tuft of grass at first glance, wears bright yellow with brown pants on all wednesdays and hence looks like some rotten banana, and is referred to as the pest by a certain group of pple comprising 2.5 PA members, 0.5 guzheng menber, 1.0 photog member, 2.0 choir members and 1.0 basketball member. that in total adds up to 7.0 people, all figures given to 1 decimal place. RAHH! i'm going mad...

oh by the way, COMM SERV DAY RAWKS!!! i super like the little kids. oh my. they are like so so so cute. love them all. they made me wanna become a kindergarten teacher! haha, i told YQ this and she said i'll teach them da wrong things. haha wadever. but anyways, they are like so small and cute and huggable. they cheered up the day:) haha, and it was like some disaster at LT1 where i did PA for the kids singing. okay, kids can't sing and they love shouting into the mikes and i had a hard time adjusting for them and teaching them how to use a mike properly. haha, there was some degree of frustration when they anyhow shout into the mikes, but when they smile - i just melt. Awww... they are so lovable!

so talking abt PA, i did the house sessions. OMG, it was like such a mess. but thankfully everything went well enough. but me and ivan were like running 2.4 around the school liddat. and rite, i never prepare anything for debrief lah. and i was like repeating myself, "erm, ya, so everything was well done.. ya, its very good that you all showed initiative when the projector couldn't really work... ya.. very good.. everything went fine.. ya... we did ok given the circumstances and did what we could in the shortest possible time... ya.. so well done lor... ... ..." RAHH. what a lousy debrief lah. and i forgot to ask if the other venue I/Cs got anything they wanna say... rahh. so - malu. malu. malu. but never mind, i'll do better next time:)

heys, and good news. my hair is finally long enough to tie it up. FINALLY. even though the sides keep falling out in bunches, at least it looks neater than not being able to tie my hair up. i feel much more normal tying my hair up. haha.

oya, our class got this 'first year going into second year medical school student on vacation' for physics cuz the original teacher went to china with the principal. YAY-NESS! cuz basically he's not fierce and we can just stone or do just about anything during his lesson without him getting angry. hmm, i've got this question in my mind. why do pple wanna go medical school for 6 years to become a doctor? doctor can earn a lot of money meh? actually its not very worth it to become a doctor cuz even though the salary is high compared to most other professions - when you divide your salary with the number of hours you actually slog in the hospital... its like abt the same as other jobs rite? so why slog so hard and allow your brain to be clogged up by medical terms? some pple say they wanna become a doctor cuz they wanna save lives but how true is that? i think perhaps most doctors start off having that noble aspiration. but it sort of dies off after a few years of medical practice. dunno lah. i'm not a doctor and i won't want to become a doctor so if any of you eventually become a doctor - you can tell me abt it next time. haha.

anyways, i'm quite stoney now. bubbyes... signing off now. PA rawks:) the 7.0 pple plus renuka plus my bestest fren LINDA rawks!

Ps: how i wish i could go to the camp. you all enjoy yourselves and tell me abt it nxt time kaes? cya all around:)

OMG. the stupid maths VA had me on the com for 11 hours straight. walao. and the internet duzzen really help much. RAHH. you can't imagine how much this calculus thing made me so turned off at the thought of maths and bubbles. you know wad i mean. like almost everything was direct cut and paste from the net. and i regret not doing this with xiaoxian and ade. wad crap. the 1500 words was sheer torture man. OMG. imagine more VAs from the other subs. goodness. where on earth have you ever heard abt GP va? yeah, NJ made it a world first. wadever.

i'm like so dead after being on the com for 11 straight hrs. i wudden mind if i'm msn-ing or surfing - but its MATHS VA. Grrr. i need to get my mind off this.

anyways, last fri rocks. partially. haha. me, yuquan, jenn, huijuin and sumin went town for lunch. yummy! at first we settled on going PS, but then the bus was like moving even slower than an ancient snail and we were like so HUNGRY. okie, only me and jenn were hungry. so we stopped earlier at far east. actually also because i wanna go to the capsule machines, and far east is nearer to cine compared to PS:)
so we went to the long john at far east and then walk walk a bit lor. actually only went to the beads stall and the voodoo doll stall only la. haha.

hee. the interesting part is when we reached cine.

GUESS WHO I MET? Dot, rachel and guanling!!!! omigosh, i haven met them in ages. and they all look so different now! prettier i mean:) dot looks so nice with the newly rebonded hair! *envies- anyways, she said she'll be going for orange highlights on monday, and i can't wait to see! hopefully i can go church with her next sunday:)

anyways after that we went to check out the capsule stations from top level to bottom level. and we were like quite disappointed wif the machines at top level. cuz dun haf mickey or donald or stitch. haha. so anyways, the bad stuff started happening when we reached the basement.

firstly - no body wanted to help us change notes to coins.

secondly - the machine that's supposed to change notes to coins was empty. meaning no coins la.

thirdly - because got no $1 coins rite, me and yuquan went upstairs to the neoprint shop to change coins. we sort of felt bad cuz we never use their machines and yet exchange for their coins, so we act act and loiter around the shop a bit pretending that we're interested to take neoprints la. so finally after pretending and walking from machine to machine for a few mins, we made our way outta the shop inconspicuously. AND GUESS WAD? THE FRIGGING SHOP ASSISTANT FOLLOWED US OUT TO GET BACK THE COINS THAT WE EXCHANGED. and the thing is me and yuquan have already walked to like 2 shops away liao. WAD CRAP IS THAT?! if you dun want pple to exchange your coins without using your machines, den please make it known beforehand. if you never stick signs around to inform pple, how would pple know? use your brain can. when she approached us rite, i sort of bluffed her and said that actually we're just gg to the washroom and will be back to take neoprints later. SHE SAID COME BACK DEN CHANGE THE COINS AGAIN. WAD CRAP. we're like so totally pissed off okay. and i dun usually feel that way. but on that day, at that point of time, i was super duper pissed off. i'm never ever gg to patronise that shop anymore. never again. its just so crappy. rahh.

but anyways, we somehow managed to get our coins to play the machine:)YQ went first and spin the thing 2 times. first one was pluto. second one was goofy. OMG. can you imagine any lousier combi than that. so after her its my turn. first one was pluto. second one was PLUTO. yes, again. CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME WAD CRAP IS THIS? 3 plutos in 4 spins. guess the whole machine only got plutos and goofys. goodness. cheat money. bleah.

after all the spinning the 4 of us were like so super tired liao. so its go home time:)by the time the train reached city hall, only got me and jen left. so we alighted at city hall to catch the train towards boon lay. and i dunno how we take train, we took the train back to somerset. walao, super blurrr la. and while me and jen were like pointing at the mrt lines and figuring out why we came back to where we were, we saw kayhow and junxiong ON THE SAME TRAIN, IN THE SAME CABIN. coincidence also never coincidence until liddat lor.(translate to chinese) we must have looked like stupid idiots to them at that point of time. but anyways, both of us reached home in the end. haha, wad a stupid day.

haha, today's like the fourth day of hols already. And i dun have to go to school! so was lazing around a bit in the morning after breakfast- nutella with toast as usual...before whipping out my econs text for some reading. so now its lunch time and thats why i'm blogging cuz my family went out to get lunch. haha.

oh anyways, i'm going to type down wad happened in the last 2 weeks or so just in case i get ammnesia when i'm old. at least there's this place where i can come back to read abt myself rite:)

haha.. there's the track and field meet which was a bit of a flop i think. only a few groups of pple were cheering, mainly the old and new council haha. den the rest of the school bascially just sat there waiting for milo to be delivered. the atmosphere sort of got a bit better during the staff relay and everyone starting cheering for their favourite teachers:)so it sort of made the day end well. anyway, after the meet ended, i dun really remember where we went. erm, isit KAP? sigh, see wad i mean, i might get ammnesia next time.

oh, and i missed the new council investiture cuz i was away for dental. i really got dental. actually the appt was at 9 plus liddat.. but i din really wanna return to school so early. so i hung around orchard for a while and got chips back for sports meet later:) haha, my dentist change the colour of my braces from my fav lime green to suit the colour concept of his new clinic. he changed it to grey and yellow. OMG. its not say very hideous, but its definitely not nice haha. anyways, he said i can take my braces out at the next visit!:)that'll be nice.

haha, and on last saturday, me, jen, and cheryl went to sumin's house to do econs va. (va means varied assessment) but before that we were at AMK central buying lunch back at macs. we all ordered students' meal haha. and den after we've gotten wad we ordered and was abt to leave, jen suddenly said her sprite wasn't sweet at all. we all took a sip of it and really eh, it wasn't sweet. i requested for a new sprite. and wad came back was equally unsweet. so we asked to change it to a coke instead. and guess was, the coke was unsweet too. goodness. but we were sick of it already and sort of made do with it lor. haha, and later on the bus, i drank some of my coke light. AND IT WAS UNSWEET TOO. moral of story- dun buy coke light or sprite from AMK macs.

so finally we reached sumin's house. wow. both the inside and outside looked very nice! but the security wasn't very good. cuz got a lot a lot of places where you can climb in without pple finding out. and it actually possible for you to jump down from 2nd storey to 1st storey with the help of some rope. haha, interesting architecture. i must go back and explore it again. oh, and i'm convinced that its actually possible for a normal human to jump down from the block opposite sumin's block into the swimming pool. but have to calculate the projectile and everything first lah. haha, and we din really do much for the va. basically just slacked throughout. and started playing bridge from abt 4 to 6. the bridge was super fun. super super fun. but then we had to leave soon cuz jen and i wanted to go home to watch our 7pm show:) so started packing up and all that. sumin packed up all our macs stuff to throw into the rubbish chute. and i din even realise i put my coin pouch and ezlink inside. super blur me. i only realise it when we almost reach the bus stop. and by this time, the management had already left. so the security guard said he'll inform the rubbish chute empty-er tmr and see if we can find it... so thank goodness, sumin helped me get it back! sumin rawks. thanks so so so much:)

lalala fast forward to monday. monday we all came back for chem spa. but me, yuquan, shihua, xiaoxian and sumin met up at coro for lunch before we went to school. i reached there a bit late, but they helped me place my order already. so my lunch was there when i reached. yummy. i like squeezing the lemon sauce all over the plate... anyways, as usual, the rest of them finished their food faster then me so the auntie cleared away their plates. and just at this point of time, a super big group of hwa chong pple came. and we were made to evacuate the place. so i ended up eating with the plate in one hand and the spoon in the other- all while standing up. wad a funny sight lah. but after a while the auntie finally got some heart to set up another table for me. haha, and the group of HC pple made this guy apologise to us for having made us sit at another table.

haha, anyway, chem spa is such a flop. but i'm over it liao. try not to think so much abt it. and apparently adeline studied very hard for it cuz you know... haha. after chem spa, we went to do some cultural mapping. bleah. went to some funny uninhabited temple and took pictures. after that yuquan went PS to meet her aunt and shihua went JEC to meet her mum and sis. i went home feeling so tired but happy:)

and i watched X-MEN!!! quite nice lah. but the part abt the angel boy cutting off his wings, oh my, its so sad. and jean grey looked so old as compared to previous movies. hmm, it din really affect me when cyclops died haha. but i suddenly liked storm more:)oya, i wanna do some poll counts! how many of you actually saw the chess pawn move at the end of the movie?

hee. met up with shihua and xiaoxian at bukit timah to play pool on tuesday before we went to visit the autism association in the afternoon. the guy at the autism place gave us an intro as to wads autism and the behaviour of autistic kids. goodness, i could identify with their behaviour. i'm autistic. shan't elaborate more. cuz it obvious from my behaviour. though i like crowds and talk a lot to pple.

anyways, the day went quite well until we left the autism place to look for the saint andrew's cathedral home for aged which was supposed to be in the vicinity as indicated by the map. walao, we walk for quite long before we found it. the place was a disappointed. its not really fit for living. the lighting was terribly pathetic. the facilities they have are poor. and the space is so small. i thought a home was supposed to be warm and cosy for the elderly to live their last few years in comfort. but the place resembled some third world hospital ward instead. sigh. sighs.

so we left the place and walk to the shop n save nearby to get food. cuz i'm hungry. got sudden craving for doughnuts. but there weren't any around so i settled for biscuits instead:) after that we tried to force XX to go IMM with us but she want to go home. reason - she want to watch yu le bai fen bai. or isit wan quan yu le? anyways, later we met yuquan at PS and had dinner together:)

finally. i can talk abt wednesday. which is yesterday. haha, in the morning got physics lec. super sian. but at least its kenneth koh talking and not the other lecturers:) and had to wait till 4 oclock for my PA exco interview. haha, was talking to mingxuan, dhika and chakyan before the interview and they made it sound as if its so bad. haha... actually its ok lah. but i realised i got tricked a little in the situation question. very hard to put down in words so if you wanna know come ask me=P after that jen and xiuhui went to pasar malam and i went home:)

dunno when will the results be out. guess everyone is a little anxious. but all the best kaes?:)

phew. just finished doing some blog-hopping... haha. and saw xinxue's letter. OMG was all i could manage. walao, her english damn powerful lah. i feel so paiseh, dun think i can write half as well as her lor. goodness, how did she manage to do that? anyways, feeling pretty bored now and got lotsa random thots...

as i've just said, i was blog-hopping just now... and many pple had thank-you notes posted and all that... just to say i appreciate what you all have done kaes.. thanks:)

but actually i din do as much or as well as i should have to deserve the recognition. so i'm pretty much feeling like 'i dun really deserve it'... sigh.

anyways, i just realised i missed the chem olympiad training last thurs. oh no. haha, dunno how my disciple did without me hanging around. hope he taught well.

anyways, last sat was funtasia. and it turned out better than what i had expected:) the concert ran through smoothly... hee, thanks to us PA pple!!! haha.. and the class stall(although appeared to be messy from the front), carried out our massive operations smoothly... haha somewhat like an assembly line liddat, fill cup with ice, pour sprite into cup, pour ribena into cup, pass to counter... and the cycle repeats itself again and again... but thats not the point. wad mattered was that everyone in S14 chipped in to help, even though it was not their shift and there was like this feeling of 'lets work together to get it done'... haha, its a good start. hope we can enjoy ourselves again on sports meet cheering for others:)

gtg now cuz meeting piak and linda at clementi and i'm going to be late if i dun log off now.

very long never update liao. heh. can't remember all the things that happened. so just talk abt the major stuff i can rmb kaes.

sigh. chew juon gave me CWO for being late 5 times. yups, i know its a lot lah... but mostly clocked them in term 1 cuz i can't get to parade square by 7.40! term 2 never late so much cuz got tap card. at least got tap card rite, you only have to tap before 7.40 then wun be late le, dun need to reach parade square. anyways, i'm still quite sian diao by chew cuz he gave me CWO when got other pple late even more times then me. wadeva lah.

anyways, recently these few weeks still quite happy, cuz at least i've got some life outside school. haha. cuz got PA concert rehearsals and all that. and our 1st ever 'can-be-considered-successful' class outing! class outing is to celebrate nina's bdae and we got her billabong slippers... and dat reminds me that i haven finish collecting money for the present yet. haha. anyways, we went from marina square to paradiz centre for a pool game... and the pool rawks... walao, sijing got super beginner's luck lah.. she shot in majority of the balls for her team lah.. really. me and adeline just stood there and stare at them lor. haha. later some of them left le, but me, sijing, nina, lihui, shaun, adeline still continued one more game, haha. den abt 8 plus we went macs for dinner. nina and i talked abt some stuff. and i enjoyed talking to her:)


the past week quite busy cuz got PA guitar concert! haha, its the same pple doing events again.. mingxuan, xiuhui, nina, jen, melissa, me, kayhow and jestyn was i/c! it was like so much fun doing backstage, even though i'd rather do control haha.. walao, during rehearsal i din know florentina was supposed to sing at the piano area, and i left her mike in the middle of the stage! and on the actual day, i din check if the cordless was unmuted. OMG, they said there was no sound for abt 30 secs until jestyn went to unmute it. walao, so malu. i din even realise it. and wad was i doing at that point of time? coiling cables. ha. but generally everything went on quite smoothly lah. and after that we went KAP for food and games! truth 0r truth! haha. quite fun lah. oya, and lianhui msged us if we wanna do PA for college day... and the group of us mass msged her... guessed it'd be the same group of us doing again!

anw, my mum is nagging at me now cuz i've been on the com for abt 3 hrs le.. but i'll continue blogging a bit more.. haha.

yuquan got this sexy voice these few days... quite fun cuz she can't suan you back when you suan her! muahaha!
oya, and linda, can you faster tell me your blog?! i tell you liao lor... and the shirts rite, i dun need to use them urgently, so you all anything return also can... :) miss ya by the way.

and sigh, hmwk piling up. i'm going to take a shower now, and start to mug a bit before watching my show on channel 8 tonite.. haha. bubbyes.


~creamNcrepe~

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. At the end tag at least 5 people.


1. Linda
2. Piak Loo
3. Esther
4. Jennifer
5. Shihua
6. Yuquan
7. Kayhow
8. Jestyn
9. Yawen
10. Elton
11. Xiaoxian
12. Xiaothong
13. Sihui
14. Eunice
15. Kah hwee
16. Nina
17. Huijuin
18. Yuyuan
19. Majella
20. Anitha


Questions.

1. How did you meet 14?
haha.05s18 at PJC.

2. What would you do if you've never met 1?
haha, i can only say that i'll never have a better friend than her. She's like
the person i trust the most.

3. What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
OMG. dats like a joke. think they can click pretty well. but the thing is both
are either attached or on the way.

4. Did you ever like 19?
Yups. She's so bubbly and encouraging!

5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
erms... not really. think they look for different things in a relationship:)

6. Describe 3.
Oh esther! haha, i've been classmates for 4 years with esther, and sort of seen
her change from someone quiet to someone more confident of herself! she's nice in
her own way... she's my really good friend! and, she loves maths.. haha:)

7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
hmm. yup, his humour and confidence makes him attractive.

8. Tell me something about 7.
oh haha. you all know abt it, dun get me started or else i wun stop. i shan't say
more =P

9. Do you know any of 12's family?
can't say i know them personally lah. but got see them before. i miss xiaothong!

10. What's 8's favourite?
eh. PA? haha. or maybe cheese?

11. what would you do when 18 confesses that he/she likes you?
eh. will be super stunned. haha. aiya, impossible lah!

12. What language(s) does 15 speak?
english, chinese, maybe hokkien? weird question.

13. Who is 9 going out with?
Oops! i forgot his name, and we got eat icecream together before! something
xiong isit? sorry yawen!

14. How old is 16 now?
seventeen! we celebrated her bdae on 01052006!

15. When was the last time you talked to 13?
few weeks ago. haha.

16. What is 2's favourite band/singer?
Simple Plan. actually she listens to everything.

17. Would you ever date 4?
as in if i'm a guy? hmm, if i'm a guy i wun date jen. because i'm quite blur and
dun think jen can stand it. haha.

18. Would you ever date 7?
this is such a 'duh' question. haha.

19. Is 15 single?
not sure leh. but if you ket me guess, i think she has high chances of being
attached.. haha!

20. What's 10's last name?
isit elton or yongqiao?

21. Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
assuming i'm a guy.. my answer is no... haha.

22. What school does 3 go to?
peihwa presby. nanhua. trinity college. uni of melboure:)

23. Where does 6 live?
hougang. haha, low thia kiang won!

24. What's fav thing about 5?
shihua is a very nice person who is kind and generous, and helps you take your
stuff, very helpful.. and she suans you when you least expects it.


5 people to be tagged

~ Linda
~ Cynthia
~ Yawen
~ Sihui
~ Yuquan

this week is like super rawking cuz i signed up for PA talentime! as in i'm doing PA for talentime, not taking part in talentime. lol. although end very late but its worth it cuz of all the fun we had inside control room.. i'm in charge of curtains and cd player, meichen and sherrie(think its spelt liddat,haha) doing mixer while junxiong and raychuan doing lightings.. haha, think control room was like a whole lot of mess cuz me and meichen and sherrie keep having KTV sessions.. hehs. den we keep forgeting to mute and unmute the mikes and all that. haha, thank goodness on the actual day nothing major went wrong. which means got some minor stuff lah. haha, for the 1st dance group we forget to unmute the stereo, so they went music-less for a few secs. think we ruined it for them, but never mind cuz they weren't very good in the first place. haha. on tues, it was a total mess. by thurs it was under control. so on fri, its okay! :) thurs night after rehearsal we went out to bukit timah food centre for supper. haha, dunno why me and lihui went even when we weren't hungry so we ended up sharing a plate of fries.. haha, elton and kayhow treated us to stingray. so next time it'll be JTS le.

anyways, guess the best part is on fri when everything finally ended. the debriefing was like damn fun and lame. but everyone left school feeling so happy. haha, especially the PA cheer part, everyone was very on and very high. we cheer like dunno how many times lah. PA oei!

haha, but then hor, me, XM and KH had to wait for like at least 45 mins for the stupid bus to come lah. and its not double deck somemore. walao, wads wrong with sbs buses at night. den, XM and KH alight before me.. so i'm like alone. haha, but thank goodness i never fall asleep like last time liddat, den so super malu when others have to wake me up at the last stop. haha, so by the time i reached home, everyone's asleep le, which is just as well lah - so no one can nag at me. haha. PA rawks! and i'm looking forward to next event!

signing off. creamNcrepe

yo pple. finally after abt 1 week plus, i'm back to blog. haha. anyways, lotsa stuff happened during the one week cuz its enrichment week! heh, went everywhere wif my qingfu and i'm lovin' it!

monday was the compulsory arts edu thingy and the asian heritage tour class A.. the arts edu thingy was real funny and lame.. think its was from the fingers player pple.. haha, sat wif YQ and we were taking pix at lt5.. haha, taking pix of ourselves.. wad else? it ended at 9 plus den me and jen had to wait till eleven plus for the chinatown & little india tour. haha. at first we decided to go to chinatown den have our lunch, but the mere action of sitting in the canteen has slowing peeled away our resistance... haha, we ended up eating 'soemthing in a bowl'. felt so guilty after that.

anyways, we were supposed to meet at atrium for the asian tour.. saw justin and huijuin and sat with them on the bus.. walao, it costs 2 bucks for a one way trip. wadeva. the chinatown trip is sort of sucky cuz the teacher duzzen know his stuff and the little india trip was worse cuz we have to really decipher wad the teacher is saying. basically cuz his english is bad. they're 2 different teachers by the way.. walao, we walked for at least 5 hours nonstop. so imagine how braindead i was on the way home.

tuesday was asian heritage tour B. to chinatown(again) and kampong glam. the malay village trip was sort of enriching cuz this teacher(dunno wads his name though..) really prepared his stuff and brought us around to nice places.. kudos! chinatown was bad, cuz it was the same teacher from the previous trip... haha, everything was sort of rushed cuz surely got pple come late and everything.. so think one day when we have the time, me and jen will return to explore ourselves... and we'll drag YQ and XX along.. haha, so that YQ can carry our stuff, and XX can be the photographer..

haha. anyways wed got nothing much, only the uni talks. went for nus and ntu business with YQ and jen. guess got help me a bit in planning for the future lah.

thurs was the best part of enrichment week cuz its the middle eastern cuisine thingy! although must walk quite a distance from bugis, it definitely worth it cuz the food there is super nice! haha, i'm still thinking about the chicken fillet with that damn nice gravy.. never tasted anything dats better than that... wonderful... next time got any special occasion can go back and eat there :)

friday was actually the most interesting part of the week! cuz got choir concert and PA camp! haha, yes, you know wad i mean. anyways, me, jen, YQ and shihua went out to KFC before the choir concert for dinner and it was like raining cats and dogs lah. actually i wanted to go KFC cuz they have the scratch card and i sort of wanted to try my luck. lol.. anyways think i got the $1 off cheesefries. chey. cheat my money. haha, when we came back school it was like past 7.30pm oredi.. and we were like rushing to put our bags in the range and then rushing to lt5. walao, i seriously tot we were late. but guess wad, the concert haven even started when we reach lt5 lor. but never mind lah, got time to cool down.

after concert is PA camp. me and jen and YQ joined them halfway cuz the camp started at 7.45pm. haha, we missed the double wacko game. and i seriously dun rmb the names of quite a number of pple. anyways, we joined them during the horror movie screening and the girls were like screaming their heads off. but its not say really scary lor, its just plain gory although its not as bad as house of wax. haha, think the really scary ones are those which play on your mind - the psychological ones... those that make you think too much even after the show.

halfway thru the movie, the exco suddenly paused the show - to ask us to refill our milos.... so crappie lah. but actually they got motive behind doing this. lol. the exco came up with this game that was really lame. abt pple dying and we have to work together to find clues to solve the mystery. haha, lots of pple play before already so its like weird to pretend that you dunno wads going on. anyways, the 1st to die is junxiong. din see his corpse though. next to die is kayhow. haha, guess he must have been laughing his guts out on the ground. den later xiumin was stabbed to death i think. haha, murderer is xinming. actually, can see that exco really planned a lot for this game lor. so we all appreciated it very much. really :) next morning we walked all the way to opp beauty world to eat prata. talked alot on the way there. after dat we went home happily. sorry lah, i'm like quite braindead now so everything here is like quite brief.

but anyways, thats like abt all lah. haha. creamNcrepe.

haha. i'm contradicting myself. i actually enjoyed the camp. it was so wonderfully fantabulously awesome. most importantly, i made a bunch of good friends - nice and motivated pple, my group during the camp, ARASHI. haha, we rawk. anyways, i came out of it feeling good abt myself and certainly more motivated.


anyways, the hols was well spent. but the camp made me feel super tired on monday and tuesday. bleah, my eyelids felt as if they were like 50kg liddat. and i was late for school on monday cuz i counln't wake up. and guess wad - chew meted out punishment by making me responsible for cleaning the whiteboard for 1 week. sian, but its my fault rite. haha, its shihua's turn next week. oops, i'm evil. wadeva.


so today we celebrated jen's bdae! had a super hard time baking the brownie last night. realli. its da first time i tried it. haha. it turned out to be extraordinarily hard for a brownie, almost like a cookie. sigh. was actually quite erm.. sad.. when pple started talking abt the freaking brownie. at that point in time, the 1st thought that came to my mind was 'hey heys, i took the effort to spend the time to bake the brownie while you all were sitting & enjoying yourself in front of the tv. so shuddup if you have nothing say and if you do not appreciate the effort then forget it. i shud have just grabbed the ugly looking marble cake which costs only 2 bucks from ntuc instead of coming up with this freakingly lousy project.fullstop'

so, i really felt a bit hurt though i sort of shrugged it off. but at least after that those who tried the thing said it was nice. so, i realli felt better. thx. think i'm not going to try such stuff anymore. i guess pple still want normal looking cakes from proper shops. but next time gimme more money first before you want to do anything. wad can you get with 10 bucks budget at 8 oclock at night?

now, i'm wondering why i'm typing like so hostilely. its just like all the suppressed feelings from just now is coming out profusely. sigh. wadeva lah. but guess its an experience, i'll organise a better bdae celebration the next time.


enuf bout it. today went to orchard with jen, YQ, sumin and huijuin for neoprints and lunch. the neoprint was cool. as usual, the pix looked nice, basically cuz i'm inside it. haha, jk only. anw, there was this bunch of anderson pple who cut our queue.. we were unhappie bout it but din realli do anything. but you know wad? there was this pair of lesbians behind us who went up to the anderson pple and asked them to get out of the machine. WOW. i got nothing to say. and i saw the lesbians kissing. Eeew. but i acted as if nothing happened. ha.


after neoprints we went for lunch. not gonna say where cuz this information might lead to the leaking out of certain sensitive stuff. haha. think jen and YQ wud agree with me. who knows wad will happen rite? after that YQ had to leave cuz she had to go home for some serious hibernation. you only have to look at her eyes to know that. so jen and me were looking around at the eyeplay shop for specs frames.. i saw 2 that i really like. the brown and orange frame specs were realli cool, and we both agreed that it sort of suited me. the salesperson was realli nice to help me to write down the reference number for the frames and all that. maybe i shud be nice and give her the GEMS card rite? hee. anw, i'm gonna persuade someone to get it for me.

but the fun came after this. jen suggested doing something that i do best. whee. shopping! haha. she wanted to get new clothes so we walk around heeren there lor. wah, the shop at the 2nd level got 50 percent discount and it was realli cool lor. and then i had even found shoes for next year's CNY oredi. damn zai rite. haha, there was another shop we went into which was manned by this gay guy.. and guess wad. STOREWIDE 50% DISCOUNT. this was realli cool. think i'm gonna drag my mum there either tmr or sunday.

later we went cine.. to look for the pair of mickey studs that we want. as expected, no stock. wadeva. and i was considering if i shud get the apple earphone thingy from the apple centre, but after that decided that there wasn't really a need to do so. haha, the time was already 6 plus liao and we realli have to go home.

jen and i stopped at 7-11 cuz i wanted some nachos.. but later ended up with 2 bottles of pink dolphin and craze hotties. just becuz i wanted 2 of those badges den must spend minimum 5 bucks. haha. i was hoping i'd get mickey. but i din. so sad. i got nemo and dory. but never mind, i also like. jen and i were counting the number of pple with ugly hair and ugly shoes. haha, very bad rite. but it sort of added into the fun. why isit always that the fun only comes when we're going home? but i certainly laughed a lot. guess we're one of the noisiest pple on the train.

anyways, saw yanru, xiumin, yawen and sihui during breaktime this morning. i was so happy. even though we only talk for a while, but i really felt very very happy, like as if i'm back to my normal self again. haha, i seldom get such feelings nowadays. i dunno how to describe it. i guess maybe its just more difficult to feel emotionally attached to s14 pple as compared to s11. but at least i have pple in the class who are able to engage me in a more personal way, to talk bout the deeper stuff together.
tmr is jen's bdae. and i have the booster session. meaning i'll get to meet arashi. haha, this entry is quite sian cuz i'm almost braindead by now. but still cannot sleep cuz must msg jen at 12 midnight. haha. maybe listen to my JJ songs. and i must meet linda and piak next week.

haha, whole family went to mount faber this morning. so i'm pretty much alone at home. listening to jay's shan hu hai again and again... cuz got this very nice feeling... haha.

oops.. class outing only got 8 pple ah.. sorries kaes..

this morning i woke up at 8.57. not very late rite? haha. and i made myself breakfast - 2 slices of bread with NUTELLA. haha, normally i only take 1 slice, but with nutella.. its different. think i'm eating nutella rather than bread. haha. actually wanted to kope my bro's HL milk wan.. budden never mind lah.. in the end i din.. so never drink anything..

sigh, later have to go back to my queenstown house by 4.30 cuz miss chua's coming over. and freak, i haven done the homework that she assigned. later still have to iron clothes for next 4 days, cuz i'm attending this freakingly expensive camp. can i dun go?

anyways, i wanted to watch 'da chang jin' yesterday night.. budden forget it lor. dun think my parents will allow cuz they weren't in a very good mood when they came back from dinner. walao, why mediacorp broadcast the show at 10 oclock lor? liddat less pple will be able to watch lehz... sigh.

oya, and i got my 2nd hello kitty le.. it was a bit crappy lah.. but i still like it. hee.

wonder wads everyone doing during the hols. tutorials? tv? haha.

anyways, there's nothing to eat at my jurong place, so i'm going back to the queenstown place to finish the leftover new year goodies. hope they haven spoil. i sound so greedy. haha. wun be able to use com for the rest of the week le. so... everyone enjoy the rest of your hols kaes? s14 is a group of special pple to me. really :)

elaine loves shan hu hai, linda, YQ, jen, jj... plus much more. bubbye.

i din go sentosa with the class cuz i din dare ask my dad. sigh. so i stayed at home the entire afternoon lor. my bro and sis went to the study room at the CC in the morning, so i'm alone with my mum. as usual she wasn't in a happy mood but she shut herself in the room so we din have any clashes. lunch was a bowl of tangyuans cuz there wasn't anything else in the freezer liao. my parents haven been stocking up food. bleah, nothing for me to munch on except a box of van houten chocs. i took 2 secretly. haha.

anyways, i did trigo the entire afternoon until linda called and we chatted for quite a while. haha, linda and i have endless stuff to chat about - as usual. haha, she said something i tot was quite funny... she went to the NUS central library yesterday, and it juz happened that there were lots of chiobus in the toilet when she went in. linda said she felt like a pig standing beside a row of fairies. haha. linda, you're a poodle, not a pig. lol.

anyways, my mum went out at 5 plus after receiving a message from my dad. think they're going out for dinner. but most importantly - they'll be back late. haha, that means i can use the com. heh *evil laughs* but i hafta settle my sis's/bro's and my own dinner first. no prob, wad else but macs? i'm going to get the 2nd hello kitty liao.

i wonder if 06S14 is having fun at sentosa. hope you all are. haha, most prob you'll all come back with sunburns. haha.


i juz checked out the kbox webby again but i still dunno how to check how many k points i have. do i have to call and ask? i think 10 k points can exchange for 2 movie passes.. i should have more than 10 k points by now haha. den me and linda can go watch movie together!!!

haha. din get to type another entry on sat. anyways, went to IMM for lunch. nothing much, juz walk walk around there lor. parents and sis went to baystreet while me and my bro went to macs. (cuz i wanted to see if the new hello kitty is out oredi, it wasn't by the way) joined my parents and my sis after they're done with their lunch. after that, guess wad? we did something realli stupid. my sis wanted to try the glass painting thingy which costs a ridiculous $5.50 and MY MUM ALLOWED HER TO DO SO. i can't believe it. guess its because they juz came from the parent-teacher meeting and my sis's teacher said somthing bout boosting her confidence. goodness lah. did you know that the pixs available at dat place are like so damn pathetic. OMG, pikachu, pooh and hello kitty were thoroughly distorted. all in all, its juz a total waste of $. haha, but that wasn't the worst. my parents left me and my sis there while they went shopping - meaning i was stuck there to help my sis finish the picture. walao. i ended up doing most of the pix cuz i think my parents gave me more artistic genes than my sis. my sis actually wanted to use fluorescent colours and thank goodness i stopped her from doing that otherwise the pix would undoubtedly turn out to be disastrous. haha. after that my dad bought the samsung car headset for his new phone which was gotten from my oredi reached 21 mth plan. bleah - that means i'm not going to get a new phone anytime soon. aiyoyo, so sad. anyways, haha, saw mr ng with his parents at IMM too.. i was hoping to catch him with his girlfriend but never mind haha dun think he has one. think we reached home quite early cuz my mum din really want to walk. haha, so i watched tv the entire afternoon until my dad got angry with me for not asking his permission before eating a piece of bak kwa. wadeva lah. so i went for a shower and something happened. haha, i broke my specs! dunno why leh, i was only trying to take it off then it juz broke lor. my dad wasn't angry, he only ask me to use superglue to stick it back before i get a new pair. whew, superglue is damn strong - i din know that. after dinner we went looking for specs. went into 3 optic shops but couldn't find a funky enough pair of specs in the right colour. sigh, den kena scolded for being fussy. hey heys, i'm going to be stuck with the specs for at least one year leh, must choose properly rite? guess the person at the shop was a bit pissed cuz i tried more than 20 pairs haha. i'm just practising my consumer rights. in the end, the irony was - my sis got a new pair of specs while i didn't. haha. actually there was a super nice blue and lime green pair of specs but it cost 120 bucks without lenses so forget it ba. think the multi-coated lenses will cost an additional 40 bucks. my dad wun agree to pay so much. but i really really like it a lot. my bro offered to sponser 20 bucks. den i only got bout 50 bucks cuz hols dun haf allowance. sigh. dun worry! i'll be able to find an even nicer pair someday!

den on sunday it was the same old routine stuff - church. it was okay, the sermon actually was more interesting than usual but i still fell asleep. oops. thankfully i managed to wake up before pastor ended. haha. after that we went ang mo kio central for lunch cuz my mum wanted to get a new pair of sports shoes. after that i was so so so seriously hoping my mum would have to mood to go orchard or something. but she din so all of us went home. sian. wad a way to spend a perfectly fine-weather sunday afternoon. sigh. but we went JP for dinner at night cuz my mum wanted my sis to borrow books from the new library. haha. so we each went our own separate ways. parents went to popular to get assessment books for my sis (cuz she failed her maths). me and my bro went around looking for specs but they dun really have any nice ones. haha, as usual, we ended up in NTUC to get food. wad else? finally at bout 9.30, everyone finished their stuff and we went home. and i still dun dare to ask my dad if i can go for the sentosa trip on tues cuz i made him angry in the afternoon. sigh.

okie, today i woke up reluctantly and went down to play bball with my bro. haha, quite fun, and even though i din realli burn a lot of calories... at least it sort of lifted my moods. den in the afternoon my mum wanted to try out some fried dumpling thingy she juz learnt... so i helped her to peel garlics.. walao.. peel until i want to die. sheer torture. i'm never gonna do it again. heard there's some sort of a tool to help peel garlics around, i'm definitely going to get it for my mum on mothers' day. after that i helped her wrap the dumplings to be fried. at first the dumplings looked like a child's play dough haha, but i think after that i got a bit of the hang. wah, spent abt 2 hours juz wrapping 1 box of it. haha, someone help massage my back and my fingers, they're seriously aching like mad. so now i'm sitting in front of the com and blogging. hehe, think my mum let me use the com cuz i helped her with the dumplings. anyways, listening to my lin junjie songs. so cool. so nice. but juz now my mum said 'why you all listen to this type of songs wan? dun even know wad they singing about..'. haha, generation gap?

oh.. looking forward to the campus superstar tonight. actually wanted to upload pix of the dumplings i wrapped and the pix me and my sis made at IMM. but my dad locked the laptop with some password so i couldn't use the infrared to send the pix over to my com. never mind. shall upload next week kaes? going to check out the kbox webby now. bubbye.

la la la. this morning my parents went to my sis's parent-teacher meeting. hmm, and they wun be back till 12. dats why i'm using the com now. haha, but before that my bro was using. and he pissed me off. he said he juz want to check mail. i said fine, go check it asap. after that he said he wanted to play one more game. wadever. just one more game. but he continued to play more and more games, trying to push my limits. walao, shudden have let him played in the first place lor! i was so fervently hoping that the evil samurais in the game would kill him asap. Aaah. typical brothers.

anyways, dunno why i suddenly thought of the freaking shirt that our civics tutor wore yesterday. walao, why a shirt with peacocks? and that translucency of the material of the shirt just makes it to be pure disgusting. hey heys, its not sexy kaes? xiaoxian and i was thinking that someone should recommend him to a good hair stylist. maybe he should seriously consider changing his shampoo to one for oily hair. i dun hate him, but i just dun understand why must he behave in such a way that is so peculiar and queer. bleah. *sticking out tongue* whew, enuf bout him.

anyways, as i was saying just now, my bro was checking his mail with msn open... haha, and i saw something funnie. his fren's nick was 'MY MUM SHOULD JOIN THE DEBATING TEAM'... haha.. and this made me laugh my guts out. how true. haha.

oh, i'm looking forward to the class outing on tuesday!!whee.. Sentosa here we come! hope we gonna have a great time there.. and that it will bond our class together. hehs, we were talking bout playing truth or dare @ sentosa that day.. heh *evil laughs* most pple will choose to play dare... cuz.. some secrets aren't meant to be revealed rite? xiaoxian, if you're reading this: i'll call you at 7.30 to wake you up. haha

nowadays, everywhere i go i see the GEMs card.. something bout go the extra mile for service isit? haha, me, jen, eileen and sumin went KAP on monday for some chatting.. and i got my hello kitty toy. haha, one down, three more to go. anyways, there was this macs guy (dunno wads his name).. he gave us 2 balloons. you know the type that they make it to look like an apple? ya. we said thanks for the balloons. and guess wad he replied. he said those weren't balloons. those were apple balloons. diao. lame.

i think the guy who gave us the apple balloons at KAP macs was hoping that we wud write him the GEMs card. too bad. we din. i think it was sweet to give it to chris who gave me the plastics bags, but a bit ridiculous lor.

haha.. yesterday jen got a new nick. damn funny lah. WEN HO AND JENNI-HO. but i'm still gonna call her jen. lazy me.

oya.. hey heys! anyone been to the canto dessert restaurant at zion rd, opposite GV grand? oh my, its damn cool. wah, still got cable tv to watch wan lehz... although the food wasn't extraordinarily exceptional, the overall ambience is - 2 thumbs up! think we can go there to celebrate's jen's birthday which is coming soon! haha, pple who wants to share jen's prezzie juz send me a msg kaes?

bubbye for now, cuz my dad juz called to say he'll be back. and i have to vacuum the whole house before he come back. see if i can blog another entry later in the day. haha.

haha. finally a new entry in 2 weeks. nothing much happened though. life's fine. anyways, it's a friday today, meaning i'm going back to my jurong place - dats why i have to lug the big yellow paper bag to school today. today's lesson quite slack, only 2 lecs and 2 tutorials.. at 1st we tot there was a maths test, but in the end it turned out to be - the teacher getting pple out to do questions on the board. goodness, i studied on the bus lor. lecture was not bad cos lecturer is kenneth koh. haha. oh, i think i was quite rude during civics today. hmm. i shouldn't have replied in that freaking tone, budden i really dunno wadahell he's trying to ask me. ok, next time i'll take note of my tone. anyways, i was looking forward to class outing after school, sigh, but in the end there wasn't any cuz wads the point if there's only 5 pple? i was quite disappointed though. BUT, something cheered me up. I shan't elaborate more. haha. it was abt 2 at that time. den after that we went home lor. was waiting at the bus stop after nina left on bus 154. den linda called and ask if i wanna go out cos we haven met up for a long time. i told her to meet me at coro cuz i wanna checked if there's any FBT shorts. so i walked from the bus stop opposite NJ to coro. bleah, the sun was super scorching. haha, coro ran out of FBT also. oya, and i ran into PA pple. but the bad thing was, i met someone i dun like, haha i guess most pple wud know who she is, there's only 1 girl that i dun like in NJ. anw, that din bother me much though. so i waited and waited at the coro bus stop for linda to arrive from SAJC, think i waited for almost 45 minutes? walao, then in the end, guess wad? SHE FOUND OUT THAT SHE HAS ODYSSEY OF THE MIND TRAINING IN THE AFTERNOON AND HAD TO CANCEL OUR MEETING! tsk tsk. do you have any idea how warm the weather was? aiyoyo... but never mind lah.. i shall forgive my bestest friend! haha. so i took 157 home lor. actually i wanted to take 174 wan.. but then i was feeling really warm so i just took wadever bus that came first. then took the same bus as xinming, kayhow and elton... they must have thought i was some freak or wad. cuz my mood wasn't as high as i usually am. haha - it was the freaking weather okay? anyways, i thought about a lot of stuff on the bus. i haven been doing any meaningful stuff recently and i feel really empty. sometimes i juz feel void of any emotions and all i do is juz to stare into blank space. I was thinking abt all my friends, my class, my CCAs... and i really miss all that i had last year. i can still recall those heart to heart talks at KAP and in the school canteen... the wild and hilarious hours at Kbox.. dinner at curry wok... hah, no way that i can relive it all now. pple this year are juz different from pple this year. both groups have their own good.. none is better or worse than the other... but why can't i have the best of both worlds? dunno why i suddenly missed 05s11 so so so much, but i know i genuinely do. sigh. glad we're still in contact and still have plans to go out together :)

kaes kaes... enuf bout such stuff.. haha, was very tempted to get an apple pie at JP Mac.. not cuz i was hungry or wad.. but i guess it was more of a psychological thing. i got it in the end. haha. oya.. met yanru on 181! she borrowed calvin and hobbes from the new JP library.. haha.. typical. but i was really happy to see yanru. hee, took my time to stroll back home. finish my apple pie before i got into the lift. haha. hmm. that was the end of my shortlived happiness. when i reached home, i said hello to my mum and she ignored me. i tot she din hear me or something, so i said hi again. but this time i confirmed that she was ignoring me. and the thing is - i dunno the reason why. when my dad came home, he told me that my mum was angry at me cuz i did not call back home for the past week.(i stay with my auntie during weekdays) walao, liddat also can angry. pls, i dun see the need to call back if i have nothing to say. wadever lah. my dad said she was also angry at me cuz i did not tell her how much i got for the maths test. goodness. dunno why my mum liddat wan. i'm never gonna be like her. i read somewhere that schizophrenic parents drive their kids crazy. and the thing is my mum is certified schizophrenic. really i'm not kidding. dats why i'm going crazy. sometimes i juz can't stand it anymore. and there's no one to turn to, no where i can go, nothing to do to take away the emotional stress i feel. jess said i'm so hyper and trigger-happy all the time cuz i have too much psychological burden and is too eager to take it all away, dats why i get happy very easily. i guess its true partially. i think my mum's depression is getting to me though i've been fighting it off for the past 4 years. AHHH!!!why is my family like dat? sigh. actually this afternoon i wanted to go down and play basketball with my bro when i reach home. think i reached home at abt 4 plus 5. den my mum started shouting and screaming at us so in the end FORGET IT. sick. i can't stand my mum hollering so i'd rather forgo playing basketball for a moment of silence. she started shouting again when my dad came home. ha.. this is the typical thing in my house. i've became so numb to my mum's hysterics that i can't be bother anymore. so i just cooped myself in my room and was working out the sudoku puzzle in the newspaper. haha. finally after a whilw, my dad took my mum out for dinner to appease her and calm her down. that's why i'm typing this now cuz they're not at home. my bro went for taekwondo training so i'm pretty much alone at home. i shall go to the CC to see if i can sign up to learn anything interesting or useful to pass some time. at the very least, it gives me some reason to get out of the madhouse.
lalala. next week is the march hols. guess everyone has been looking forward to it except me. my auntie signed me up for this adam khoo motivational thingy which chunked up thursday friday sat and sunday of my march hols. it starts at 7.30 and ends at 11.30 everyday. sian. yupz, i know its good for me lah.. but its just taking up too much time. leaving not much time to study. sigh. yanru told me cynthia and huishan went to maldives yesterday night. so cool! i also want to go! haha.. anyways, my parents come back liao, so i'm signing off now :)

haha.finally i'm back from the super long hiatus.changed the skin and all.but still haven put up tagboard so wait a bit more k? anyways, lotsa stuff happened in the past few months. but i'm not going to put it all down. jus the main stuff k. sorries! so here it goes... 2 weeks ago got class outing @ marina square changing appetites.. the senior class pple came too. haha, and we tot they were going to reveal the angel mortal game, but they didn't. so we went arcade and played pool. haha, typical class outing but din bond much. tried out this stupid but really fun jap samurai slashing game, haha, i died in the end. but i enjoyed the pool game. played 2 hours with yanqin. it was her 1st time but she played quite well. Kudos! anw, yuquan joined us halfway after her jap class... and den we went shopping for vday presents.. even though we had already done so yesterday for 6 hours. haha. then my mortal wrote to me for the very first time on monday. Hee. den tuesday was vdae and we went kbox. haha. not going to write abt it on the blog since the pple who will read my blog know abt it already. hmm, something happened on tuesday afternoon, a big problem. big headache. its still troubling me till now, even though i tried so hard to put it off my mind. but i know it never will. enuf abt it. so its sunday now. and even though i want to write more. my dad is nagging at me for using the com. haha, and the funny thing is i haven been online for the past 2 weeks. wads the problem with adults. and wads wrong with blogging? hey adults. wad you dun like or dun agree duzzen mean others can't do it. how i wish i can be happy once more like i was in the past. haha, now, everything justs seem to point towards the fact that i'm just nothing but a mundane existence on earth. but i vaguely remember someone saying - there's always light at the end of the tunnel. if you want to see the rainbow, you've gotta bear with the rain.haha, how true. i'll remind myself abt that.hey, cheer up elaine!

never in my life have i felt so overwhelmed by events in my life. and never have i tot that i'd be so affected by my school work and da people in my life. how i wish that the promos will never come. or at least gimme more time to prepare for it. i'm going to go insane soon. i do want to pass my promos too. i'm feeling so messed up and depressed. nobody knows how am i feeling. its not so simple like exam stress you know. i dunno wad i'm doing. i'm juz one confused soul. i should get out of this as soon as possible, but i just cant seem to do it. help. i'm seriously in need of some help. i hate myself for all that i've done. i hate myself for wad i'm doing now. i hate myself for being able to condone wad i'm doing now. i need to stop being lazy. i need to wake up. 2 more weeks left to promos. i can do it. the first thing to do is to clear my mind of all those rubbish. wake up elaine. wake up and get rid of the rubbish.

yeah.todae was a bad dae.the moment i woke up i got "attituted" by my dad cuz i talked on the phone wif a guy in the shower.seriously i think that there's nothing wrong wif doing dat.wad can you do if a good fren calls you?answer the phone rite?even when you're in the shower.i juz on the loudspeaker and spoke while bathing at the same time.and i see nothing wrong with it and why do my dad wanna kick such a big fuss outta it?wadeva.den loads of stuff happened becuz of PW.me and yanru was supposed to go find her during lunch to get our eom.which meant that lunch is gone.it is bad to start the day knowing that you're not gonna have lunch.but anywayz, we went to look for her during lunch and she wasn't there. We called her using the speaker thingy abt 2 to 3 time, msged her and all. yupz, but she juz cant be contacted.In short, me and yanru wasted our entire lunch becuz some soul had decided to pull a disappearing act.yeah, we were hoping that she'll be stuck in some toilet and not able to come out forever.wadeva.dat means we have to look for her after school.FINE.this is a bad way to end the day too.and we spent more than 15 minutes searching high and low before she appeared before our eyes clad in this purple jacket which is totally revolting.okie,i'm juz being biased.anywayz, she spoke to yanru first and they took such a long long time. but i had a nice chat with cynthia investigating the paths of ants and we even went to buy a cup of pearls.you might think that she would have been done with yanru by the time i came back from the canteen.nope,she wasn't.i even finished my pack of fries.haix.but the atmosphere at that time was really serious.or at least between the two of them.she was reprimanding yanru on her attitude and such stuff.unrelated stuff.so yanru argued back lah.haix.finally, she finished her scolding and turned to me.goodness,the look on her face resembles some image i've seen years ago.erm, isit medusa?ya,i think so.so she started pointing out my faults - not the eom's fault - one by one."why did you skip my pw to do blood donation?""i asked you to look for me many times oredi,but you never did.""what have you been doing throughout the hols?why din you do your eom?and you need me to call you to chase after you?"haix.but the most insipid question that she shot at me was "So isit my fault that this had happened?" of cuz i had to reply 'no' rite? den she asked "so whose fault isit?" And she expected me to say that everything is my fault?hey woman,you're supposed to eveluate my eom ya?i conclude that she has this monstrous nature to coerce students into blaming themselves for everything that goes wrong.entirely monstrous.she had wasted more 1 and 1/2 hours of our time pointing out our faults when she spent less than 10 minutes to mark our eom?ridiculous.the time spent is inversely proportional.haix,and to think that i had changed my bad impression of her just a few days ago.sad case.but suddenly i tot of something dat cheered me up.she duzzen teach j2 econs!dat means i wun get her as my teacher next year, that is if i get myself promoted lah.hah.anyways, school ended today at 3.but we left sch at 5 plus cuz of her.sickening.wad a way to spend 2 hours.me and yanru complained all the way throughout the 174 journey.complained abt the 3 NGs and a WEE.hah.wad's the problem with NGs?oh, they're the problem.hah.so i reached home at 6 plus.had to wait for my idiot bro to finish playing maple before i could use it.and dat was at 8.Started doing the eom lor, wad else?oya,cynthia send me this super nice korean song.dunno wad its called.i'm gonna put it on my blog-haha,cynthia i dun care,i'm going to copy you!its realli a nice song.i'm addicted to it.i'm going to learn how to sing it after the promos.den can sing it at marina bay when we go for our buffet rite?haha..anyways,cant find anything more to say liao.so i'm stopping here.oya,good luck all J2 seniors for prelims!and i miss my rifle.only one more month before i get my life back.[i miss my rifle-*chanting]

today's a sunday.i din go church cuz i stayed at home to do gravitation.ermz,not physical gravitation.physics gravitational field.yeah,dun be shocked.i do have to do some work from time to time rite?so today's the time.ate quite a lot today,junk food and stuff,so i told myself dat i wun take dinner tonite.but in the end,i had KFC for dinner.dun worry,the diet always starts tmr.hee.so i checked my mail today.and yanru had oredi sent me the written report and bibliographies.but i cant open it!wadeva,so in the end she sent it to me via msn again.dat was at abt 6 plus?hmm..i planned to finish it within one hour but ended up doing it till ten thirty.bleah.and juz when i was so relieved dat i've completed it,i received a msg.from miss ng.ya,you're rite.miss ng,my pw teacher."elaine,you have to see me during lunch tmr.bring your pw booklet along.you need to rewrite your eom."dat was wad i received.bleah.but wadeva lah,i'll get it over and done with tmr.oya,thank goodness yanru received the msg too,at least got someone to redo with me.i wudden want to be left alone with miss ng for an hour.not dat she's not nice or wad,but ya,its juz weird lah.next friday is linda's bdae!my best friend's bdae!but she's not available,so cant celebrate it.but i've tot of how to celebrate it with her after promos!hee,cant tell it here.by the time promos end,it'll be like the 2nd week of october le,den maybe can celebrate both our bdaes tgt rite.dats it den.anyways,only 3 weeks down to promos,and i feel the rush.normally i wun,but this time i do.maybe cuz its realli impt.sometimes pple juz need to have a hard fall before they realli learn.yeah,this is realli the case for me.not a good way to learn.but at least the 'fall' from common test is not too late yet,there's still time for me to catch up.3 weeks.it's enuf.right now i'm becoming so stoney from talking about promos so i wun talk abt it le.Yay!wad am i going to do after promos?one thing for sure is i'll be training everyday!i'll train in the morning and den go out in the afternoon!the tot of it rawks!imagine being able to train everyday.i realli lurve this idea.i miss my rifle,miss the sound of the pellet fitting the metal plate,miss the feeling of shooting tens,miss training with everyone else,miss rushing down everyday after school to the range!heh,only one more month to go before i'll get my life back.dunno why lehz,but i suddenly tot of the teachers' day afternoon when i went back to nan hua.keat hou used to be this outcast guy in my sec 3 and 4 class.cuz he does some disgusting stuff and all.but no one understands dat he's juz liddat lor,its not his fault dat he's liddat rite.its jus the way a person is brought up in the family.but overall,i've been like one of the few who is willing to talk to him most,and i find him a sincere person who wants to make friends but no one is willing to do so with him.wat i wanna say is dat he realli changed a lot as compared to the past,so why not gif him a chance and see how nice he actually is.why do pple have to run away everytime they see him.why do pple have to make it so obvious that they dun like him?cant dey be more discreet abt it.he's human too.haix.i guess only linda understands.i dun care how other pple react towards him,but i realli dun like it when i see this close friend treat him badly too.i guess he doesn't ask for much,jus dat everyone treats him with the basic respect lorz.anyways,he told me about his new webby.keat hou created this blog with his fren - studentssketchpad.blogspot.com.its realli cool, and its realli popular,many pple visit it in a day.he's even thinking of publishing a book with his comics.yeah.go keat hou!=D..haa..i juz tot of the pple in my life..actually there are only a few pple who matters to me a lot.juz a few pple dat i cant do without.haix.is this a good thing or a bad thing?i'm not sure either.i'll think abt it when i've got the time.okie,i tot of something else again.isn't it a sad thing if one regards another person as impt but dat person duzzen think of him/her in the same way?again,i'll think abt it when i've got the time.haix,gotta stop now.i think this entry is totally uninteresting.you can push the blame to project work.yeah.sorrie.sian.bleah.

okie.fine.i know i haven been updating my blog for quite long oredi.yupp,much stuff had happened in between.interesting stuff.yeah.but i have no intention wadsoeva to blog it down.cuz its realli going to be brain racking if i do it.sorrie.anewaez,i'm going to blog down stuff dat i did/happened during this sep hols.yay,i went to NUS central library almost everyday.it rox.erm,not juz the facilities,but the fact that i had to act like an undergrad to smuggle myself in.and yes,i did quite a good job.linda would agree with me.heh.it felt great too - to ACT mature and all.haha,i guessed i look the part,but the moment i opened my mouth to talk,yeah,you're rite.its another story.okie,i did past year maths papers and complete the june vacation package.i'm proud of myself.praise me.but wadeva,i dun realli feel confident enuf still.read a bit of econs.din do chem at all.but i did practise physics with linda.goodness,i wanna stop talking abt sch stuff now.i burned 3 cds within a matter a 2 days.not bad ah.and got myself addicted to JJ.i think dat his 'dou4 jiang3 you2 tiao2' is realli so cute,but no one seems to agree with me.wadeva lah.hee,i changed my phone profile name to the lyrics in the song.hah,fine,you can start laughing at me for being silly.Okie,my life is realli interesting but i cant say why izit liddat.yeah,i promised not to.and i wun say.maybe it'll shock the life out of you.hah.oya,juz finished my eom,tot i did quite a good job.but i was supposed to send it to ms ng at 9,and i sent it at 10.think i'll get a earful again.hope i'll rmb to go find her during lunch on monday.cuz she asked me to.and actually i want to ask her if she's free to gimme private consultation,ya,my econs is realli lagging behind,even more behind than the tortoise to the hare.but i'm not realli sure how to get about it.quite hard to tell her rite.actually i oredi want to ask her during the hols,but cant seem to decide how to ask,so i chucked this matter aside.haix.PROMOS.its impt.juz do my best ba.and it seems dat i've been neglecting my frens.as in sec sch frens lah.like esther.hope you dun feel dat i've forgotten abt you or anything.nope,i haven amd i wun.i do miss you even though you're in australia and i dun get to see you as often.realli looking forward to you coming back in december.yeah,promise i'll go and get you from the airport.and xiao thong,how are you?if you're reading this,den maybe drop me a line or two?i dowan to lose contact wif you.dats all for now.i'm signing off soon.i miss my rifle.I MISS MY RIFLE.oya,its true,hugx are addictive.din realli believe it at first when i heard you talk about it.hah.

THURSDAY:Taiwan Immersion pple coming!
haha,we had this 2hr programme for dem in the afternoon.yeah,sort of organised it over the weekend.but pple still have classes and only less than 15 pple were free to help out.hah,actually i oso haf lessons,but i ask miss ng to let me off early.hmm,at 1st i ask to leave @ 2, cos the thing starts at 3, but she only agreed to let me off at 2.30.haiz,so have to rush down to the range to prepare the guns and everything lor.I got the feelin' dat miss ng wud go tell mr lee dat i shuddun be too involved in club activities.AGAIN.but anything lor.wadeva lah.back to wat i was sayin.i sort of finished and checked wat needs to be done and we waited like dunno how long b4 the taiwan pple slowly strolled into the range.so jiangshui gave the intro.oh ya,sorry JS 4 tellin u to do it @ the last minute k.srry.anw,dot and guanling did the pistol teaching.and it was time for the guests to go try it out themselves.i tot everything was ok but den we realised that some lanes dun haf pistols.PANDEMONIUM.yeah,it was such a mess.although everything was settled and the rest of the programme went rather smoothly,dat sort of spoiled the thing.i tot everyone tot it was bad. but all said it was ok and mr lee said it was good.cuz dey enjoyed demselves and dats ultimately the point.haix,how i wish i cud do it over again.haix,but yeah, it over liao so shan't think abt it anymore.phew.

a certain teacher said "there are students in my class dat cannot do transformations.ya,iknow u are doing 4 subjects,but i haf hundreds over students too."WADEVA.but i was offended @ wat she said.Its not that i can't draw the graph.Just that she had caught me unaware,i gotta shock cos i was doing something else when she called me.I badly need to refer to my notes, even when its juz drawing a simple curve.cuz i dun memorise graphs okay.and i haf enuf self confidence. my confidence is not below anyone else's.

FRIDAY:
went down to range to train cos coach was there. he helped me to modify my rifle.moved the weights.hmmm,yeah,got a better feel of my rifle.Its great now.so trained till 6 plus and left at abt 7.reached home at 8.kena scolded like hell for nothing. apparently my dad conveniently forgot abt the agreement we made earlier.Even though he still made me stand at the losing end,with or without the agreement,dey still made my life like hell.haix.

SAT:
came back for training at 9.15. haha, actually suppose to reach at 9. but side gate close, so hafta walk the long way.reached there but range dun have lanes!so wasted time talkin to pple till 10 plus 11 plus before lane 12 was available. hmm,ya,quite happie with wat i shot dat day.nxt week going for cdans mthly.played basketball with JP,kim,dot,PX...fun,even tho i seemed like the only crazy person around.and ya,JP dun let me start watching the 1st episode of bleach.cos he said i'll get addicted.haha,went home.kena scolded again.cos dey weren't in a good mood.i'm sick of you all venting your everything on me.I'm really sick of dat.pls treat me as you would treat yourself.or at least treat me as a human,someone with feelings,someone who can think and feel.haix.

MON:
community service day.the karaoke thing was fun.oh,i bought a cup of pearls.yeah,juz pearls and nothing else.haha,everyone was staring at me.probably dey thought i was some weird gurl haha.but i dun mind.eh,lets just say i'm unique ya?haha. anyways,went down to range.did some econs.but armoury not open so cannot train.went out to holland village wif JP,WR,mr lee,mr tiew,alwin.... for lunch at swensen's!the icecream rocks.yupz,had abt 5 scoops of it.haha.den went to taka cos mr tiew want to buy toys at the fair.really enjoyed myself dat day.



hey srry everyone.i'm really tired now,so all the above is wat i would say quite mundane and uninteresting.yeah,i'll fill in the details in my next entry.so cya den.


elaine.me and my rifle.i luff my club.we rawk.

i was thinking. maybe what i need is an attitude of indifference. i shudden have said so much. i dunno if its my prob or isit yours. But if you're affected by wat i said, den try to forget it. treat wadeva i've said as you like cos i know i'm in no position to comment on your stuff. if it was me who made you so frustrated, i wun say sorry. becos i dun think it was really my fault, it was bcos you were struggling internally i guess. i wun do it again. as in i wun comment or give my opinions freely again. only to have someone getting all fed up and venting anger everywhere. and you're not the only one who is troubled. so, now on, elaine will have an attitude of indifference. wat for should i care so much and yet wat i get in return is non-gratitude and frustration.
i will never say more than what i should ever again. i'll just shardup okay. me being indifferent to stuff means i'll not interfere in anything. fine.

but anyway. i still luff my club and my rifle. (even though its not a compressed)

[eh...i've been neglecting many pple. and i do feel some guilt for doing that.]
audrey, i'm feeling bad cuz i always dun have time for you either on msn or just msging. yeah i'm always leaving the conversation after a few minutes... and its not very nice on my part. jus wanna say i appreciate u keepin' me company all the time, and always lending me a listening ear. you're my moral support and pillar of trust! And cheryl, who is my help 'machine', churning out great advice whenever i need it. especially recently when some stuff cropped up... yeah you were such a great help and without you i would be at such a loss.. i wouldn't have been able to get back on my feet so quickly... Luff ya both sistaz...(^_^)*

thx captain.the numerous messages you sent to me were realli encouraging. they made me feel that there's always someone near me who will back me up all the way. yupz, and thats you. i can realli feel the effort you put in when you try to pull me back onto my feet again, to lull me out of my occasional depression. i'm touched cos i really really feel genuine care and concern.

yanru. eh, i wun bug you to not to drop econs anymore. cos i know you must have tot it thru before reaching ur conclusion.

and yah... linda, must jia you k... best frens through and through. i know you're facing a lot more. i understand. keep on going, 4 more years to go. hold on to the end. i'm sure you can do it. i'm always with you. God bless ya in all that you may do.

and i seriously need God back into my life. cos i've been putting him aside for such a long time. be wif me and guide me towards the right path.

elaine acquired an attitude of indifference.

to keep disappointment and troubles far far away. out of her life.

:)

elaine

13.10.88

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